my 35th birthday

I passed my birthday in a very busy mode doing some important things (other than my birthday). There are people didn’t know or didn’t bother. I guess birthday to them is an unimportant event, they didn’t even think of them. Or maybe, I should follow suit and when in one day, should I “forget my birthday date”, it would be a nice thing (I think) .


Otherwise, there are a few who ask (Siying/ Sisheng), and Xingyan(興彥) come to me to say happy birthday, I appreciate all this effort by them as little things can mean a lot. In the end of the day, I got 68 FB greetings and a few msg. I got unexpected greetings from ( Raine / Wynce ) , although, there are some important friends I had yet to hear from them (receive their greetings ), but I hope to be positive and presume they are busy and (or) had forgotten. I just want to look at the bright side and stay cheerful. I got a bag (from a dozen of people sharing cost) and I love it very much, thank you all of my friends.

Now coming to birthday wish, other than a very old wish, I had no other wishes. But then, I should strive to achieve better self for the years to come. I should strive to read more, exercise more, work harder and play lesser games.


A Chinese saying, 「永言配天，自求多福」。在自已的行為上，一直不段自我要求，以達到 [天」的要求，這就是為自已尋求多種的「福報」啊！」

林則徐有說「海纳百川，有容乃大；壁立千仞，无欲则刚 」，多要求自已，不要求別人。

GOD BLESS

生日會

在9月17日，這是我人生第三次慶祝生日。開心和不開心的感覺都有 (或許這就是人生吧)

第一次(1988年-12歲)。第二次(1997年-21歲)，第三次(2011年-35歲)。以這樣算來，第四次不就是。。。。(2030年 - 54年)?? 真的不得而知。

早上有去打羽球（七個人），之才到麗晶的家慶祝生日。(很感謝她和她父親(聖喜叔叔)讓自已把生日的地點放在他的家 (准備的作工是很多的) 。自已沒有幫到什麼忙，心中還是有些慚愧。食物方面，很意外的得到瑪華阿姨、薜太、謝太和滄海叔叔的幫忙，本來在兩天前，還擔心沒有食物，兩天後卻來了來多食物。看食物的樣子，准備的功夫也是不少吧。不但如此，竟然不用錢 ！這大概就是我最開心(和感恩)的一個地方吧。

人員方面，有10人出席，比自已算的15人少了一些，春敏（生病）:(  、姿惠、婉霞等人都沒來。安的時間剛好遇到秋萍出國，所以她也來不成。馬來西亞的朋友也沒來，或許是這一次生日中，在很多開心里的「一些不愉快」吧.

做人(我想) ，多想開心的事，人也會比較樂觀。多想感恩的東西，人也會比較积极一些，要為有來的人( 孟錦、子強、志賢大老遠從兀蘭 / 天偉從市區 / YENYI 從白沙來)感到開心，這也是用心的表現，加上德明和仁暉, 這已足夠讓自已過一個快樂的生日。


GOD bless
慧臺  

生日前的感想

距离17號還有3天，但都不能確定有多少人會出席。現在食物方面也是一個問題，我媽有作工，所以沒辦法忙我煮米粉。馬來西亞的朋友沒有回應，大概是不會來了。到時會吃什麼，要准備多少人份，還是一個未知數




人生所面對的問題實在多，想請的那個「女孩」大概不會來了。新加坡打不進世界杯，奇迹不曾出現，今年的願望沒能實現，大概只能等「來年」了



還好，有象「天偉」這樣的几位好朋友，幫自已籌備星期六的聚会。 做人要時常有「樂觀」的心熊，古人有云，「三人成眾」，有三個朋友，就不可以講少了。做人要學會，多自我要求，不要求別人。人多慾，就多煩腦。少慾，就少煩腦。願望少一些就是件好事，大概就是這個意思。



很久沒打maple 了，FFS 也「死」了，希望有一天，我也可以不看 [FACEBOOK] , 那會更好吧。近來多看「聖人」的書，心情也比較開心一點。只希望今年，自已多努力，所謂的「謀事在人，成事在天」 。只要時時存「感恩」的心，沒有日子是難過的。



慧台上

Blog for sept 11 (1)

some sad news.. FFS（friend for sale) will be closing down on 3 sept 11 due to insufficient players . Some games i have played for a long time. But maybe it might be a good news after all, as i have quited maple, after this saturday, i will also give up FFS, leaving only cafe world. i will strive not to play any more new games, as i will spent more time on some reading.

my birthday has been shifted to 17sept. there is so much mixed feeling trying to organise such activities. on the downside, many of my friends either not free and adopting a "wait and see" approach. are they sincerely trying to make the effort to come? or are they thinking of some excuse (for not coming)? should i be positive and hope that they will turn up ? or should i be realistic and cancel the activity?

on the upside, at least a few (2 or 3 friends) support me for this activities.Particular (tian wei ) who has helped me a lot. i guess i should also adopt the wait and see approach. if turn out prove to be low.. probably with a few of us , a movie outing should be good enough.

about last year wish (hopping for a GF this year), i had 表白 to a girl in msg. havent get any reply yet. Got chance? or no chance? i hope i wouldn;t have to worry myself so much.. after all, FATE decides.

the recent president election give me something for me to learn.
Dr Tony Tan is not the the candidate i choose, but results show's that majority (35%) of singaporeans have given him the mandate, thus i should respect the results and hope Dr Tan could be a Good president.

Mr Tan Kin Lian is what i vote for, but he loses badly. but at least he tried, and now he know's where he stands.

Mr Tan Jee Say has also tried. Although he had losed, but at least he give singaporean a non PAP choice and now he knows that 1 out of 4 singaporeans were behind him.

from the above 2 instance, i think i should learn to try as well ( as least i know where i stand). in the event should i fail, i must be able to 看開，放下。my wish for a GF probably have to wait until next year .

just a thought
永言配命，自求多福　。
GOD bless

huitai

新工作的感言

8月15日，我開始我人生中的第七份工作．那一天，我选择坐巴士去到新的公司。开始两个小时，坐在会议室看HR 给的文件。有问到可否驾车去，HR 的回应是说可以，但自已得出月票钱(90元)。太贵了吧，还是搭巴士比较划算。

工作了五天，感觉还不错。工作看起来差不多(图纸比较容易，但份量比较多)。能工作，而领到一份薪水，我猜想，已经不错了。最好的是，附近有卖素的，不用吃早上打包的「冷」食物 :)

同事方面，HR 没有介绍那里的同事给自已认识，所以，公司虽然很多人，但不知道名字的也很多。
美女是有几个，但不知名字，更没有打过招呼。大概是不同部门，应该不会有工事的接触，那也就算了，没有要求是好事。

九月的生日PARTY 方面，得到的反应都不是很好，25是大家忙碌的一天。希望约到的那个女孩，还没有表态，是否会来。看来机会不高。告诉自已，如果PARTY 不幸被取消，不要难过。就当做省钱，在家静静地看书，也是好事。

慧台上

雲頂一日游

2011年8月9日，我第一次有機會去到了云頂去游玩。我外公、二姨，五姨，表弟(漢忠)一起去。早上从馬六甲坐上了往云顶的游行巴士。一开始，导游(小刘)就一直介绍赌场的好处。说，只要换取200马币的 「贏码」(筹码的别名) ，在赌桌上下两百马币的赌注，就可得到一餐免费和两分。分数多了，还有幸运抽奖。有了这么多的诱惑，难怪这么多人被骗去那里「送」钱。

坐了个3小时的车程，终于到了云顶。那里的风吹来，虽然有冷的感觉，但没有想像中冷。大部份的人都进了赌场，我们几个人便到处走一下。感觉到处都可以看到赌场，有30巴仙都是和赌有關聯。





我們之后坐车到山腰的「逢莱山庄」。那里有素可以吃，只是贵了一些 (143元马币)






在山庄，我们呆了3个小时，也拍了很多珍贵的照片。







难得遇到「八仙」也不忘和他们合拍一张 (何仙姑)






也和佛祖拍一张吧




有买了一件衣服(准备要送给人) 但一时忘了和售货员要求「L SIZE」的衣服，结果拿到了「XS SIZE」不懂还可送给人吗？

下午有到「云顶第一城户内游乐圆」玩一下，有坐「船」一下，也是不错的体验。




到了六点才下山。




这一次的行程相当的不错，由于时间不足，没机会去户外游乐圆，希望下一次有机会去

是想要，還是需要？

今天和朋友(waimun) 在 jurong point window shopping 引發自已想要買好一些東西。本來想要新的手機，但舊的手機意外被德明"修好"了，變成了自已沒有理由想要買新的手機。

也有想到要買ipad, 因為很輕，可以隨身帶著。但價錢也是很高，還無法決定是否應該買。除此，自也想買一個新的銀光屏和其他東西。可是回想一下，這些東西只是自已想要，還是真正的需要呢？花錢有時也要傷腦筋。

寫出去的msg沒有回應的時候，除了等以外，自已還可以做什麼呢？戀愛是一種想要和是需要？
告訴自已，想想、少看，或許會少需要吧。自已努力就好。:)


前兩天買了一個電視機給父視，雖然不少錢，但也希望他會開心。和自已說，這儿個月還是省錢的時候，盡量少買東西。




過了兩天的「無業日」可以安排做自已的東西或運動。今天自已終于去游泳了。雖然只游了300米，但和自說，已是不錯的成績了。下次再努力

很久沒有打maple 了，可能以後也不打了吧

Last Day At IR

the final moment has reached for me ( to finish the final lap in IR. i reached office at around the same timing. i have finished all the drawing on the day before, so i spent time doing my own things. i made two walks around the factory( in the morning and afternoon

i did went to sales , and got a pic with Doris ong.







I went over to DLC,but majority weren;t familar to me , so i didn;t take photo

later, i went over to GM office and took photo with jacky and Raymond





finally back to my office to take photo with Uthai ( wendy and Florence do not want to take phot with me , but it;s ok )




only sad thing, is i didn;t see steven. at 1730, i say bye to my desk and Go home




God bless :)

IR 的最後第二天

從2009年5月18日到現在，在IR呆了兩年又三個月。手上的工作已漸漸的完成了。要開始收拾好東西，明天就是最後一天了。心情還是有一些捨不得。有好一些同事和自已吃過飯了。有什麼不愉快的事情，就該放下來。不要記在心上，外面如果遇見了，還是可以打招呼吧。

新的工作會是如何呢？希望同事之間相處會不錯，(希望有美女的辦工室？)

接下來几天，可以的話，多運動一下，跑步和游泳都可以。

GOD BLESS

一些感言

今天有些空，就去看一朋友的部落客。有一些已經被關掉了。一些則一段時間沒有update了
也以看到很不錯的部落客。
看到大部份的朋友有cbox 的，留言都是spam mail，和自已一樣
現在自已的cbox 都出現馬來語的留言，真的是看不懂。
不知是否要拿掉這個cbox. 如果拿掉，不是沒得留言？


想想，好象很久沒有人來看自已的blog 了，真希望有人會來看，並切留言吧
謝謝大家

打保玲球的日子

已經很久沒有機會打保玲球的自已，因為麗晶的安排。又有機會進行這個活動。

當天16/07/11 ，麗晶、姿憓和自已先到到金文泰(stadium)。因為毅輝和他的朋友遲到。所以我們就先打一場。之後，大家先後才到。才多租兩個(LANE) 。當天，有十二個人來打，也是很開心的事吧。

選球方面，我先選了一粒12號的球。顯然不是一個很好的選擇。才玩几下，手便很酸了。只好換個比較輕的球(8 號) 。這是人生我第三次打保玲球，技數實在很差，有一半在「洗垄沟」。我打了三場，最好的成績有62分，還是比第一次打的(39分) 來的好。 有進步也是好事。







大家打了3個小時，才回。因為打太長時間了，所以沒有時間喝茶。趕著送毅輝去補習，接著送大家回家。到晚上，就開始手酸，和腰酸。告訴自已，以後要多運動吧

July blog (01)

a little higher pay for a 5.5 work week Vs a little lower pay for a 5 day work week?
which one should i choose. I guess i have chosen the later one, so i can spent the saturday on my personal things ( and visit my dad also) . i will change job on 15 aug 2011

last week , i went to sentosa ( with my Grandpa / aunt and Biao Di ). althought i spent nearly 200 dollars for the trip, but i was pretty happy with it.

GoD bless
cheers
toii

First interview 2011

Today i went to Aztech at Tuas to interview for A.E. the Post as i expected, is still drafting based ( similiar to draftsmen ). It's look ok ( except is a 5.5 work week). there were a HR and engineering Manager interviewing me. HR personnel do ask me a few question, but the manager was relatively quiet. Later, i was led to a PC to try out a simple Dwg.

Now still waiting for results. But i'm still not very convinced if i would take up the post ( if chance come).. need to see again

For my birthday, maybe i should do up a simple Birthday Lunch?? a few sincere friends is all i need ..
God blesss

六月的夏天

最近忙著tianwei 和yongjie 的生日outing 找人參于。等了好一會儿，回應的人卻很少。是沒有「空」還是沒有「心」呢？大概心里有數吧。有「心」但沒「空」的朋友，下一次還會請他們出來。但沒「心」的朋友，以後就不用再請他們吧。這樣想，失望會少一些。

本來跟自已很好的朋友，近來對自已很不好。原因呢？大概是緣已盡了吧。如果要走的，就得看開。

最近在maple BB 之後，好像已經失去打maple 的動力。不知要不要再玩下去?

最近又來了很多想「戀愛」的感覺，不知几時才會來 :(
最近有好一些朋友結婚了，沒請到自已。只能在這里祝他們永遠幸福

我生日9月要到了。不知可以安排outing 嗎？到時才看
要努力找工作了，其他的時間到才想吧.

God bless

空軍展一游

今天終于有機會到空軍展。只是可惜，大部份的朋友都很忙，沒有來，只有天偉和sigmund (剛好三人)。俗語說，三人成眾。不可以講少了。
因為0930才在eunos mrt 見面，又很多人。排隊的來，到機場已是1100分了

走到1245便回了，有一半的飛機沒看到，下一年吧

回顧一下，安排節目就是這樣。 東西不用勉強。自然，自已開，大家都開心

走出去，就有路？

找新的工作比想像還要難 :(
新的工作是什麼工作呢？同事好不好? 地點遠不遠？工作開心不開心？薪水好不好？不得而知

只希望下份工作能在有"美女"的辦公室作工 ，或許會比較有"motivation 吧 (自已猜的)

想想一下，做人只要盡本份，就好。不想就不會有問題。

慧臺

time for a new ERa

Yesterday, my manager handed me a extension of my contract by 3 months to aug 16. the reason for a short extension ( which i believe) was due to the change of management ( the General manager had resigned and the new one would be coming from China).

this is the second time that my manager suggest i should start finding a new job. maybe he thinks that the new management might not want to extend my service, so i should take his advice and start looking for one

maple wise, i "died" again trying to do scarlion boss. i don't understand why i;m unable to pass the stage where others can do easily at my levels.. maybe i should find time to practise Boss Mob "killing" to improve my skills

GOD bless

election blues (2011)

on Saturday , i keep myself glued to the TV and internet for the results of the singapore election 2011. The result was almost the same from what i predict ( 7 seats) , a win in Hougang and Ajunied from Worker's party ( 6 seats) . the only prediction i came wrong is in Potong Pasir in which Ms Lina Chiam lost by 114 votes. this told me that every votes counts and are precious ones.

Looking ahead, with PAP having the majority, i guess there will be no major shift in policy making.Life still goes on, just hope the government to make better decisions down the road. Hope WP could do a good job in Ajunied, so in the next election, WP can possible win more than 1/ 3 of the seats in parliament.But then, thats still 5 years to go.

i been thinking of politics for the past weeks, i should put aside these isssues , so as to concentrate on other important ones

God bless
cheers
toii

changes we believe

On wedesday night, i took slightly time out from my busy schedule to attend a NSP rally at Chinese Garden. according to the google map, it mentions that the venue was inside the chinese garden. but in reality, it;s situated outside ( nearer to Jurong east ), thus i walk nearly 25 minutes to reach there.




the grasspatch were super muddy , but luckily i wore slippers. Nicole seah was arround, but i didn;t manage to hear her speaks(probably she has done with it) . i didn;t hear Steve Chia speaks as well, but then , i heard 2 speakers ( Hazel and Mr Goh meng seng ), the speech looks fine



after standing for 30 minutes, i bought a NSP flag(2 dollar) and left for home

this is the first time in history that i attended a rally. Elections a lot about promises and promises, but do they come true? which candidates will win, will the succeessful candidate bring better lives to the people? i guess election is like buying a product that's doesn;t allow refund, no exchange allowed either. which is Better ? PAP or NSP? in my heart, i know who should i vote, but i just hope , the better teams win, in so things don;t get too expensive in the future. GOD bless

大选，国家的前途，人民的未来

五年一次的大选又来了。这一次的反对党总算进步了，在87个议席当中，成功挑战82个议席。除了丹戎巴葛集选区以外，其他的新加坡公民都有机会选择国家未来的领导人，投下明智的一票。

在看这些反对党的素质。有的反对党如(工人党) 作了好几年的努力。有反对党在大选的最后几天发生了内部分争，也有一些党最后一分钟，还得靠借人员才能 「竞选」成功。不论成绩如何，我还是要感谢这些出来竞选的「勇士」 。因为有的选，我们才知道多少人是支持行动党的，而多少人不是。


讲到最好的反对党，大概就是工人党吧，刘程强先生走出后港，走向阿裕尼集选区，相信是工人党最大的挑战。也是这一次大选最激烈的一场选战。或许，工人党会得到六个议席(加上后港)。但也有可能全盘皆输。再加上詹时中先生又到了非常困难的碧山—大巴窑集选区竞选。这一次，反对党大概以破釜沉舟的方式来打这场选战，不成功就成仁。


虽然我本身不是阿裕尼集选区或碧山—大巴窑集选区的选民，不能帮到以上的反对党，但我还是希望他们可以胜出。不然，如果新加坡没有反对党，下一次大选，没有人站起来「竞选」。到时，就真的是行动党的天下，成了「不用选，而自动中选的「民主制」国家」。


只想讲一句话，反对党！加油！这一次看你们了，(希望工人党下一次会来裕廊来竞选吧)

lazy 的毛病

近來有些lazy 和lag。東西本來應該早就可以做好，但一直有"很多時間"的錯誤觀念
到了最後一分鐘，忽然來了很多不如意的事，如忘了帶"thumb drive"，要不然，一些資料，不知跑到那里了。最後一分鐘，才來緊張。我真的要改變不好的習慣。把重要的事，馬上做好，才不會有問題。

近來在FB 看到很多朋友outing 的照片，想一下，我已好一些時間沒outing 了，不懂下一個outing 是几時，我就是不會organise, 只好等朋友來叫自已去。但告訴自已，如果沒有人叫自已去，也不好”不請自去”，做人樂觀一些，沒有出門的日子，就可以省錢。在家看書，打fb 也會很開心的

GOD BLESS
cheers
toii

MAR BLOG

一個忙碌的三月，日子還好吧。
MAPLE 沒什麼時間打，只到了149 (只加了一個等級)

明天(3月29日)是瑋馨的生日，希望她開心

下個月會大選嗎？
希望四月份也是開心的一個月
GOD BLESS

情人節 2011

今天是情人節，今年還是和往年一樣，沒有情人。但常常告訴自已，今天我還是可以過得很開心
什麼是「愛」，愛要從自已開始，愛自已就不會做出傷害自已的東西，要為自已多做一些有意義的事情。不要為還沒有來的東西而難過。要為擁有的東西(家人和朋友) 而珍惜現在。
今天把時間忙完，不去想，就不會難過。自然就會開心。

新年的十五天很快就要過了。還好昨天有一群朋友來拜年，終于打破雞蛋了。朋友的一點心意，會有很大的感動。謝謝大家

最後，今年沒有送花的對象，也沒有人送花給自已。不如就自已送給自已吧




祝自已情人節快樂

新的一年(兔年)

新年很快又結束了。回顾一下，自已也過了相當忙碌的五天。在想，過年能忙一些時間出去拜年也是一件好事。初一在家。初二去了六位朋友家拜年，意外拿到了好一些紅包。雖然我還沒有打開這些紅包看看里面的內容，但和自已說，紅包重要的是祝福。自已這把年龄可以拿到紅包，已經很不錯了。今年終于去到了豪喜叔叔和利吉的家拜年(也是好事)。 不太好的地方是今年沒有人到自已的家拜年。希望明年會有 :-)

情人節要來了。對自已而言，又將是沒有情侣的一年。想想一下，自已一個人也可以很開心。已經有几年，沒有可以想追的對像，或許應該去SDU看一下？等到下半年再想吧。不想就不會有問題。不好自尋煩惱。希望在明年。

雨過天晴

上個禮拜，我花了一些時間回到馬六甲。只是可惜天不作美，從星期六，我進去那一天，就下雨到我出來(星期日)。除了晚了，漢忠表弟帶我去附近的百貨公司以外，其他時間，都在二姨家過

我的二舅一樣沒有空，所以又看不到他和麗君表妹，大概又要等下一次了。還好在我還在車站的時候，買了兩個禮物。只有滄海的禮物買不到，希望新加坡能買的到

新年又要來了，希望可以有多一些拜年。去馬來西亞的計划已經取消了，在家里也不錯。
想這句話「雨過天晴」，下了几天的大雨也造就了新年的几天晴天。做人只要樂觀，沒有過不了的路。在這里，祝我的朋友新年快樂，大家再努力 :)

first blog 2011

The start of the year is fairly OK
there was one instance , where one of my colleague overheard my conversation with the Town council regarding the the water valve outside my house ( which I could not turn off the valve , in so that I could not change the tap inside my house), he offered some suggestion and even helped to buy a connector that can do the job. Although the connector was a little too big to be of any help, but I must say that I do appreciate his help very much.

Work wise, still bearable. I have yet to start finding job. Would I start finding? I just have to see the possibility after new year

maple wise, without any 2X, I typically only train 30min a day ( gaining only 2% a day). With this pace, I might end up only to be able to do one level in 50 days? Really looking for the next 2x coming :)

New year is coming. I am trying come out with some plans to Bai nian, but the response is fairly poor.
I guess as long I try my best, that's nothing to be sad of. After all, I have prepared Plan “A”, Plan “B” etc. if nothing works, I should find time to play Maple at home. GOD bless all the time

final part, valentines coming again , just hope I do have a date this time ( if not next time also can)

cheers
toii

回顧2010年

在看著2009的blog的時候，發現日子過得很快，又一年了。我又老了一歲了。
人是變老了，但是否變的比較成熟了呢？

工作還是一樣，或許這份工作有它的好處。拿假容易吧，年底又拿了六天假，去我想要去的地方。告訴自已，樂觀還是好的。

maple 方面，從年頭到現在，提升了16個等級。或許在別人的眼里，可能很慢，但對自已來講，已經很不錯了。最近，guild master "APPLE" 回來了，GUILD 有了比較多的活動，也是好事吧

朋友方面，得罪過的人，關係還是沒變好。道德經有曰，「和大怨，必有餘怨。」得罪過的人，就算道歉了，怨氣也不這麼容易就消去的。所以，告訴自已，做人不可以做錯東西。」得罪過的人，不會再回來了，現有的朋友要珍惜 :)

感情方面，一樣沒變，就是沒有。把今年的願望放到明年，緣份"自然"就會有。
就慢慢等吧

december update ( 2010)

I have not been playing football for a very long while. But I managed to get the chance to play with my colleagues in office last Friday. An hour of street soccer on the tennis court with around 9 of my colleagues left me exhausted. I guess my stamina has dropped tremendously , I should find time to start exercise more regularly

I went to company Dinner and dance on the same nite. Unfortunately , I was fairly a bit sick ( with some fever) thus didn’t really enjoy myself.

during one of the games, i was being selected to be the one on each table to do some "stunts" (so call). the last part was to get 3 kisses from a gal on the same table. there were only a lady ( francis's wife )and she found it inappropriate to kiss me, so she use her lipstck to draw 3 marks on my face. unfortunatly, this can't deceive the clever organiser ( in which i was being knocked out). althought i didn;t win any prize but i get some good experience :)





i also didn;t win any lucky draw with my number 8041. in fact none of the colleague from my dept won anything also. but it's ok , hope next year got better luck

Maple wise, I managed to do to level 145 after some hard work. But because I didn’t buy any lucky charm in advance , and dying at least 3-4 times losing around 40% in the process, I guess I cant do to lvl 146 by this weekend. But things still look fine. At least I I tried doing Big foot and Tengku (BOSS mob)






lastly, i would be taking a few days leave to malaysia .. enjoyment time :)
GOD bless

Holiday season

about mapling.. i managed to do 2 lvl(to lvl 144) after a tough 2x on 27 nov 10. i didn;t managed to join the CWKPQ as i have yet to complete the jump quest. Since i have overcome the major obstacles, i should be able to complete soon.

this month of DEC is a holiday period, which i took total 6 days of leave. hope i could enjoy a bit for a while. i will try to do another 3 lvl of maple to 147 before the school holiday ends, or else it would be much harder to do it next year

my teeth wasn't very good , so i would have to visit the dentist two times this month, it;'s money again.. :(

stay happy
GOD bless
cheers
toii

NOV UPDATE

I went to zhixian chalet last Saturday (20 Nov 2010). Initially, I’ll not so keen on going to such a far place, since the people attending is so few. But then, since Lijing is going, I guess I should make the effort.

After taking around 70mins of MRT ride, I reached pasir Ris. It has been a long time since I have taken such a long MRT ride (25 stations). Lijing and I took a shuttle bus to the chalet at M4

After lunch, a few of the guys (only 4 to be exact) decide to go swimming at wet wet wild. Lijing (as the only gal) remain at the chalet. Just feel a bit paisei, to leave her alone ‘looking after’ the chalet. Zhixian should have got a few more ladies to accompany her as well.

The swim took around 2.5 hours. there were one event that we took a so call “raft” to slip down from around 4storey , there are photos taken but we didn’t buy them as they were relatively expensive( mentioned by tianwei )After the swim, we went back to the chalet .Buffet started at around 1800 hours. Zhixian’s relatives arrive around this time. Sad to say that, I did not see any QSN arriving. Since I had night activities, I had no choice but to leave at 1920 hours( before the cake was being cut).

The day was still fine except attendance by QSN was relatively few, I was very tired after the swim ( over worked) next time shouldn’t swim so much.


Overall I had a fairly busy month. Hope for the coming months( November and December ) I should find time to play my maple ( to level to 146 ) from the present 142

God bless
Cheers
toii

it's children's day !!

it's children's day today. How i miss the days of being a kid, i guess these will not come back again . thus i wish all my friends a happy children's day

looking forward, i am so busy that i can;t play maple for the next fortnight. but then , i tell myself , games isn;t any thing important, i should resume after 18 oct..

be happy, work hard and bear no wishes.. GOD will look after my welfare :)

some thoughts

i am happy whenever someone ( anyone) would to drop comments or like my post, and in anyway chat with me, no matter whether it is a guy or gal or young or old. On the other hands, i felt some sadness if people would to criticize my post / comment without giving positive suggestion. but then what should i do ? i will strive not to dislike anyone at all. Just that, if she/he does not like it, i should avoid commenting on his/her post at all.. 已所不欲，勿施于人，大概就是這個意思.

this saurday, our company had organise outing to sentosa, i should just go and enjoy myself. my father wouldn't want to go,thats a sad thing. but i should take some photo for him to see

my birthday coming next month, and a time when many people are busy with their studies.
guess what, i shall celebrate with myself.. be happy is the word GOD bless..

cheers
toii

two Recent outing

On 25th July, I went on the company trip to Desaru. Things were not as bad as I thought, as Goh was sitting with me on the bus, Desmond talked to me during times here and there, just a hiccup is , I left my hand phone in my office, and not able to take photo during the trip, really blur of me





Second one is to Ziyu BBQ on 31th Jul; I drive there after a class at night. Rather disappointed that, several people either have left or are leaving. Deming restarted the fire for us to start the last of the BBQ. Guo long managed to take a group photo of us.

Later, I drove Guo long and company back home at CCK. Which after I went back to the BBQ site. Within 15 minutes, all of them calling a day, I drove most of them home. I was “awarded” with some fried rice for my effort.

Looking forward, I had several friends having birthday in the month of August which I hope to wish them happy birthday

Waimun birthday – 3rd august , he busy with ippt this week, so hope I could see him next week or any time this month. Hope he can do well for his ippt.

Huimin Birthday -7th, Tian Wei managed to get her a gift, so all I can do is cost sharing. I won’t see her any time soon, so a wishing of happy birthday, wishing her cheerful and pretty always

Ziyu birthday – didn’t managed to say or sing happy birthday to her during the BBQ, so should just drop a note, wishing her all the best in her studies

Zhi Hui birthday 13th, she’s busy with her “O” level, so hope she can do all the best for her exam.

Shi jie birthday coming on the second half of August, also wish her all the best.

And finally nation’s birthday, wish Singapore luck and prosperity (more water but fewer floods)

My birthday coming in September, I wonder if I could organize BBQ also? Maybe no one turn up? Hahaha

Cheers
Toii

Lifes a Dilemma

My company had organised a outing to Desaru tommorrow(24 jul 2010) for the whole day, but then, i have a lot of mixed feeling towards the outing. Not becuse of the outing itself, as i must admit, i love outing. going out with a huge group of people is fantastic.



but then, my colleague's relationship weren;t so good, and there were times stresses buiilt up over work, and at other times, we didn't talk at all. i wonder who would ever talk to me during the trip. i couldn;t find any partner to go along either. But then, i told myself. there are times i need to step out to try new things, make new friends , maybe.



maybe the only motive i have is to go there, take some photo and post at FB.. just stay happy would be good enough :)



just a though in mind

i have not been to sentosa for a very long time. I wonder when someone can "chio" me there

maybe have to wait Bery long .. sad :(

I was fuming when I saw Suarez (Uruguay striker) making a “volleyball” block to a certain goal by Ghana. It resulted in a red card and a penalty kick (which Gyan failed to convert).


Although this is really unethical works from a professional player, but we must admit that from the point of tactics, this is a good move. It’s kind of (show hand) gamble by Suarez. At the point, if he does nothing, Uruguay would have booked the next available flight home. But when he does it (handed the ball), there are still some chances that the penalty does not goes in (which indeed it is true).
Now the question, is Suarez a villain or hero?


Love thee, because Suarez has performed outstandingly during the group match and the round of 16 producing 3 goals for his country. Most importantly, he ‘sacrificed’ himself for the sake of his country. Whether will he play in the semis is no longer relevant, Uruguay has created history since 40 years ago. On the other hand, Ghana will have to wait for 4 more years for such chance to come.

Hate thee; soccer would no longer be professional or ’beautiful’. Players will go all the way out to flout the rules just for the sake of winning. Winners would no longer be decided by who is stronger, but by who is more cunning. Comparing the hands of GOD (Hands of the devil, I would say) by Maradona in 1986 or Thierry Henry’s handball that got France thru in the world cup 2010, is Suarez a ‘better’ football player or volleyball player?

But then this is just soccer, and only goals counts. It’s a game where only results are important. How to get there (or the process) is not in the priority. If Gyan had succeeded in the penalty kick, Suarez may still continue to be the villain. But then in a twist of stories, the ‘villain’ is being transformed to ‘hero’ in just less than a minute. There is a Chinese saying, 勝者為王，敗者為寇. As long as you win, you are the king.

But then this is soccer, I guess. Unless rules changes in the future, unprofessional play such as diving, time wasting and many more will still prevail for a very long time to come. Whether you love thee or hate thee (soccer), we have to accept the fact; soccer is never ‘clean’.

Cheers
Toii

outing

On 26 Jun 2010, we went to Malaysia as per activities plan by Tianwei. A total of 6 people ( Lijing / lihui /ziyu /tian wei / Wesley chia and myself gathered at Bugis mrt to take a bus to Malaysia. I was a little disappointed not to see zhi xian coming.

we took the Malaysia express bus ( costing us 2.40SGD each ) and reached JB at around 1130am. We spent a little extra time in JB custom as Ziyu lead us to the wrong exit.


we spent half an hour walking around city plaza, and I managed to get a gift for RenHui and Lijing got a gift for Huizhi. Soon we are able to meet up with one of the two host (Yan Ru) which we spent the next two hours preparing birthday card to Yoong jie (YJ). I drawn a pig on the card (which doesn’t look like one ), at least Yan Ru draw a pig much better looking .We also bought a cake for yoonjie.





Around 215 pm, we managed to meet up with yoongjie ( after her work). We initially plan to walk to a nearby park, but the weather is super warm. So we decided to take two cabs there( 4 person in a cab)
We reached the sultan’s Garden in a 10 minutes drive, where we ‘climb’ up the hill and ‘cutting’ though a few grass patches before reaching our destination at the Pavilion.



Soon after we reached, a big group of church people also turn up for their gathering. We decided to give up half of the pavilion to them since that we have only 8 people.
We first took out the cake to sing birthday song to two birthday guy and girl.






Later, we played a game called 終級密碼 and there are “punishments for ‘losers”. Some interesting punishments include ziyu proposing to the tree, and tian Wei trying to express some words using his backside. The punishment I got is to run around the pavilion one time (a simple one I thought)






In the evening, as the sun shine into the pavilion, we shifted to a nearby grass (which is shaded) to eat the rice (tian Wei bought) and roti prata.




Around 630 pm, we finally departed. We took time to walk slowly back to city plaza and we took photo whenever there is an opportunity. We finally parted at 0730 with the host and left for home.



Looking backwards, the visit is relatively simple but enriching. The only down thing is people attending is not so much, I didn’t managed to see a few of the Malaysia QSN and particularly 義昇and Co. just hope I could see them in the next outing. Saying this, the next outing may not come anytime soon as we predict the students would be busy with their exams.


Finally it’s the birthday of Yoongjie and Tianwei today at 30 Jun 10. I can’t meet up with tianwei to celebrate his birthday due to other activities. But hope them all the best.



Wish
Yoongjie stay pretty and
Tianwei stay handsome always
(or as long as possible). GOD Bless!!










Cheers
Toii

On last Fri. (30 may), my grandpa, my mother and myself went to a trip to the zoo. We reached the place at 0900 hours. The tickets were relatively more expensive (18 dollars) than the previous times I visited the place.



We started the journey around 0915am. The weather was not as warm as expected, the walk was pretty pleasant. There were so much animals to see, thus we can only spent a few minutes for each animal. Overall, we spent the most time (45mins) at tropical crop plantation / and orchid garden seeing different kinds of plants and fruits.





Around mid day, we reached Kidz world (wet play) where I see many kids playing there. The facilities were very good; I thought I would play if I am a kid myself or if I would bring some kids there also. i had spare some thing to visit the nearby kampong house.






The most interesting show I seen for the day is the show “rainforest fights back”. The only downside for me is that we reach the venue only at 1400 hours where as the show started at 1330 hours. I could only see half the show, but it’s still nice.



After the show, as my grandpa is relatively tired. We cut short the trip and went back at 1500 hours.



For the whole journey, we didn’t eat anything. But I managed to buy a bottle of coke (using the 1 dollar discount coupon). I also did visit the souvenir shop, but couldn’t buy anything as they are quite expensive. Overall I guess the visit is fruitful and the money spent worthwhile.

From 31 may onwards, I decided to take company bus to work. For conservative calculations, I should be able to save 3.50 dollars per day on petrol, that’s would built up to a whopping 900 dollars worth of savings annually. GOD bless

Things unpredictable

Recently, one of my colleagues sold me a Samsung (Omnia lite) mobile phone for 360 dollars. At the first look, I thought it seems to better than my HTC, but I must admit that I had done impulsive buying. Maybe I should take some moments to consider, but then since I bought, I should be happy with it.


The screen (3.0”) is bigger than my HTC phone (2.8”). On the positive side, I still managed to surf the net / msn and face book (not face book games). The screen is too small for a good internet surfing, I think a pc would be much better. On the downside, I couldn’t choose the type of ring tone I want. I think I would miss the cartoon (doreamon) ringtone for a while. But then since I can’t find a good ringtone, I should just settle for a simple ringing tone.


From this, I learnt a lesson. Happiness does not come from materialistic gain, but from contentment. My pc broke down recently so I had some chance to pick up some time to read, so I think it is a blessing in a disguise. My sis managed to get me a new CPU with her company at 700 dollars, I should be getting it latest month end. Notebook wise, I would push to next year to see if I would buy an I-pad? Things are unpredictable, so I should just fold my arms, wait and see.

My PC finally broke down, particularly at a time when my cash flow was the lowest in months. Since September last year, the graphic card has been giving out signal of spoiling as my monitor screen often black out. This is also the second time that my power box spoilt. Looking forward, I think it’s time to change a new CPU, since repairing the old CPU might not last that long. Is there any suggestion from my friends?


Without my PC, I can’t surf to face book and play maple. Last Saturday, I went to national library to use the terminal, and although I can go online to face book, but I couldn’t log on to any of the games as it has been blocked by the library system.


For the last two days, I spent relatively most of my time cleaning up the house instead of playing maple. I had also spare some time to read some books. It’s has been a relatively difficult time as I was so used to sit in front of my pc to pass time. But then after the two days, I realized that times are still bearable after all


Looking forward, it seems that I had to wait until next month to get a new pc as I have spent all my spare cash on my van insurance. The plan to do farming for Maple Sea fall off, I had less time to play on my face book game (Restaurant city, Farmville and FFS). Looking on the positive side, I guess with my pc down, I could reduce my dependency on computers and spent times on some other things. I hope to spend more time reading books (Tao de ching) and maybe some exercise.




Finally, I just hope I can save enough to buy a CPU start of next month; my new mobile phone would have to wait until august. GOD Bless

上一個禮拜六(五月一號), 我和我的家人( 我的母親和外公)到金沙綜合娛樂城去走了一下。自已駕車到了那里。從外面看起來，是建得還不錯。但到了里面，才發現一部份還未建好。

從底層走到上面，經過一些店面，有一半是還未開張的。另外一半大多數是賣名牌貨，大概是給有錢的外國人來買的吧。除了賭城以外，好象也沒有什麼其他的可以看。或許應該 多儿個月才來

我們在賭城外待了一下子就走了。心里想，賭博真的那麼好？賭一定輸，時間一定輸掉。進賭城，還沒賭，先輸一百元。勝算這麼少，然而卻這麼多人要來，真的很難猜這些人的意。或許對我而言，免費，我大概也不會進去。



走了一個多小時，在娛樂城里面，沒什麼可以看的，外面就是太熱了，便打算回家。這時才發現，停車費高達十元這麼多。因為在停車場外面沒有寫清楚，有感覺被「騙」而大出血，以後如果可以，搭公共交通比較好。

工作還可以吧，從一位同事當中，學到了一個道理。工作最重要的是「人」，最不重要的是「工」。為了把工作完成，而得罪周圍的同事，就算把東西做得很好，也沒有用。但如果把「人事」搞好。雖然東西做不好，或許也會有同事會幫。「工」是作完就完了，但「同事」還會待好一段時間。學會這層道理，到那里作工都會開心。不然天天換工作，也不會開心的。

在五月份，我把車的保險還了。這個月要超級省錢，還好，自已的母親有幫一點。希望到六月會好一點，可以換一個手機。

march Blog

In the month of March, there are several things I missed out. I didn’t managed to visit the career fair in the first week. I had also missed out on the IT fair on the second week, and again I missed out on the JOBsDB fair last week also. Time fly so fast and I have yet to finish the things that I’m tasked to do. Reason? I have not been motivated recently, why have I being so lazy?

In this month, nothing special really happens, so I just drop a line to say thanks GOD , as no bad news equals to GOOD news.

Today is weixin Jie Jie birthday, I haven’t seen her a long long time. Just hope she had a very nice day today.

Nex month wise, I am unable to go my to Malacca due to a clash in activities, just hope I can find time to go back this year. But before that, I should change my passport.

2nd part to bai nian 2010

Time fly fast, and 15 days of Chinese new year has passed. I have collected 6-8 “ang baos” , but I has yet to count the content inside. With a blink to a few of the ang baos, it shows either a 10 dollar note or a few of two dollars note. i guess the total should be around 50 plus, so I should tide me over for a short while.
I didn’t catch up with any of my father’s relative as they claim to be busy when I try to schedule a time to visit them. But it’s ok , I can still visit them next year.

On Sunday, I had the second group of people visiting my house( Tian wei and Zhi xian ). It was very nice of them to take MRT from very far central or woodlands to Jurong. they sat for 45 minutes or so and help to eat the junk of tibits I bought for new year. The downside is that I forgot to take a group photo with them, so unable to post. Later we went to li jing house(didn’t take any photo also). We didn’t managed to go cang hai house as I was unable to reach him in his mobile phone


Looking back at this 15 days, I think it’s nice overall. I do meet up with Alan, Siwei , Yuanfeng and waimun. I also visited yunfu at his house during the last Saturday. Just hope that more people would visit me next year.

new year 2010 (1)

In this New Year, I had taken two day leave to be spent at home.

Sunday (14 feb) new year first day
Other than a visit to one of my friends at the early hours of mid night, I spent most of the day alone at home. My mum went back to Malacca in the morning, so I spent whole of the day “shou tan”.

There was no visitor to my house today; I spent very little time playing maple. But since most of my guild member didn’t log on at all, I log out after 15 minutes of game playing alone; I spent other time looking at face book and some other thing.
Today is also Valentine’s Day, for the people I took fancy of, I hope they are doing well when I msg them greetings. For those who I do not have their contact, I sincerely wish that GOD is also looking after their welfare. I guess I have done all I can do for love in this festive season, so I should find no reason to be sad. I got YJ’s message greetings, I guess its good enough already.


Monday (15 Feb.)
As per initial plan, I was supposed to visit my friends at pasir Ris. But there is a mixed up of timing (10 am was mistakenly typed to 10pm). I canceled the visit as I can’t make it at 10pm. But the group of people came in the evening to relay the msg, so I guess I make a mistake by not calling to verify the timing. This is something I should improve next year

Fortunately, Deming was free to come out with me, and we visited 4 places (2 places with Lijing and Li Hui ). We spent our lunch at Ru da house, and visited meng jing house at woodlands for the last venue. This is the furthest venue to be visited this year. For next year, we should strive to visit a bit further

In the evening, the first group of 15 visitors came to my house. Since I wasn’t mentally prepared for such a large group, they have to sit on the floor. This is something I will have to improve next year.

Overall , today is the happiest of the 4 days. I sincerely hope they can visit me the next year also.


Tuesday (16 Feb.)
I went to my dad house in the morning, and as per usual he doesn’t even bother to celebrate Chinese New Year. There is nothing much I can do , except to pray for his well being. I spent most of the other times at FO tang bah.


Wedesday (17 Feb.)
I spent the whole day playing maple with 2x,and managed to clear a very difficult 2 levels( to level 132) . Since leveling is super difficult for 4th job warrior like myself. I guess I should stay away from maple for a fortnight so I could concentrate on other things


Other thoughts
I didn’t hear from my secondary school friends on any potential gathering at any of their house. Siwei went to Genting with his family, so I can’t meet up with him either.

Hopefully few days coming down the road, I will be able to see waimun, siwei , yuanfeng and alan. i will outline my new year resolution as soon as possible in my next blog.

難過的曰子

近來都有一些難過，讓我想了又想。

我猜想難過應該是被人罵到狗血淋頭，但又沒有辯白的機會。難過是做錯事，但沒機會道歉。難過寫在blog上面又被罵，不得以又拿下來。有苦難言或許才是真真的難過。

朋友，請了解我還是人，當我作錯東西時，請原諒我，我只是近來壓力非常的大。朋友，我只希望我做錯事情的時候，請及時提醒我，當我做對事時，請鼓勷我。當我孤單的時候，請找我聊天吧？


情人節要到了，或許每年到了這個時候，就會有季節性的難過。新年到了，想到要拜年也有一定的難過。不知几時才會拍拖，不知几時才會結婚。想到今年拜年又可以拿紅包了，心中有一股講不出的壓力。希望可以的話，今年就在家里，不要出門拜年。不出門，或許可以省錢吧。

難過的時候，我發覺自已比較容易振作，或許每 一次的難過，都是上天仁慈的安排吧。

一句名言，「不想過，也得過，不要過，也過得差不多了。」就是這樣。難過忍一下，忍不了的時候，和自已說，再忍一下，難過很快就會過去的。天下沒有下不完的兩，忍多一下，難過就過了。


新年要到了，新的衣服都還沒買。還好我姐姐幫自已買了兩件。鞋子也還沒買，看樣子，就不買了。穿安全鞋去拜年，大概也不會有人註意吧

我想初一，我會在家，沒有出門。初二，還沒有決定吧。上午時份，希望有人可以讓我去拜年。初三早上，會看我老爸，會忙一整天，大概也是好事。初四，如果沒人來和自已拜年，就在家打maple 吧，
總而言之，只要平平談談的過這個新年就很好了，GOD BLESS.

a sad weekend indeed

On 7 Feb, my mum and I were invited to attend my cousin’s child full moon birthday. The venue was at a multipurpose hall at AMK St 32. I sincerely thought that without transport, my father would not come. To my surprise, he turns up instead (by taking MRT).

While most of us stay in the hall, he sits alone outside the hall drinking whisky (provided free by my uncle). I try to talk to him, but he always chases me away when I try get near him.

Around 1520 hours, I brought my mum home. At 1715 hours, my uncle calls to tell me that my father is drunk and need me to fetch him home. I have no option but to travel to ang mo kio again. I reached there around 1740 hours. My father had been sleeping on the floor. When he wakes up, he made a lot of din that embarrass my uncle and his family, in such, my uncle is very upset for this.
I try to bring him home, but he refused to take my van. There is nothing I can do except to see him sleep on a nearby grass patch for a few hours until 2045. I miss the night activities as I could not bear to leave my father alone. After he got sober, he insisted that he take MRT home. I can only see him to the MRT station which after I went home myself.

It’s a difficult situation like this; I guess I can only stand at my father side. Looking forward, my uncle has regretted inviting my dad there. It may means they might not invite my father again for any other celebration. I can only pray that my father can improve when times to come. GOD bless.

Life is a one way street, in such that I can only go forward but not backward. Friendship is like a piece of fragile ornament, once you broke it, there is no way to repair it. Maybe dumping them away is the only means I had, and maybe it looks like it’s a much easier route to take (and the sole route).

[To a person unknown] I never meant to irritate you or anybody I pass by, but then , if damage is being done, I guess a million apologies would be a lousier option compared to staying away. So I decide to keep quiet and stay away as far as possible. Just hope you understand and don’t get upset.

三十六計，走為上計。大概就是這個意思。Looking forward, I must not make the same mistake again. GOD Bless.

cheers
toii

想人「仁」的月份(一月)review

經過了一個忙碌的月份 , 讓我對「仁」有一些新的体會吧。
在這個月當中，不時在想著這一個人。常常看著她不常UPDATE 的FB。
POST的問題也沒有回應。猜想是自已想「人」中毒太深了吧。
想「仁」就是只求付出，不求回報的「愛」吧。因為這樣，想一人只要她開心，就不用執著一定要看到她的臉，听到她的聲音，或收到她的消息。

想「仁」應該是「已所不欲 ，勿施于人」。因為這樣，常常提醒自已，不要講錯話，和作錯事。
有時候，看開是件好事吧，他人不喜歡，就不要勉強去add 他人，因為勉強不是「仁」的表現。

我想「仁」就是這樣的意思吧。
「我想仁」這句話，把「我」給去掉，就很接近「仁」的境界吧
「我想人」這句話，把「我」給去掉，「想人」也會比較開心。
只要可以「想」，大概就可以開心了。
道德經有說，「塞其兌，閉其門」。只要塞閉通往地獄的道路，大概是很靠近天堂了。

Last blog for the year 2009

I have been missing someone (YJ) recently. Someone, whom I shouldn’t, had been thinking at all. If this happens 10 years ago or more, I would have easily convinced it is love. But today, I must admit that I’m more than confused then convinced. I can’t believe that I am missing someone 14 year old younger than my age. I used to believe that 6-8 years in age gap is the maximum I can accept for a relationship. Secondly, it is again another tall girl, possibly 5 cm taller (or more) than myself (I guess). I wonder why the gals that I like were so tall. Is there anything wrong with myself? Or is it with my expectation? Maybe I should seek help from someone “up” there, or “out” there, somewhere but don’t know where. ( hahaha)


Jokes aside, I tell myself, I have convinced myself that theoretically, this kind of relationship can’t work. But practically, I must admit that I take a very long while to overcome this difficult time. I will miss being called “Ah ma”. This “Ah ma” will be different from the fierce “Ah ma” (Anego) from maple (and her famous Ah ma slap). Instead I will spent more time smiling and stay cheerful. Fortunately, this someone is a girl that I won’t have the chance to see often, most probably once a year bah. She doesn’t use pc often, and had no face book or anything like that.


Looking back at the year 2009 at the two wishes I made, here’s a briefly review on the status.

1) Work - I wish to change for a better job with better prospect and better pay.
Results - I am now with a new employment. It’s a better job with a better pay, but
prospect wise, I guess not very good. I am still holding a pure drafting job with a year
contract. But then the things that have changed a lot are my expectation. I start to expect
less, give more, no longer complaining about anything. As long as I can get a decent pay
and pass time, I guess I have no other wishes.

2) Love –wishes for a GF
Results - 0(zero), nothing happen. No progress at all. Reason I guess it’s was because I ran
out of courage, out of steam and out of power. I had done nothing at all in this particular
directions, I guess results is perfectly ok.


Looking beyond to 2010, what wishes do I want to have? I guess I would just want to maintain the same quota. As long things don’t get worse, I guess it should be some good news to me. LOVE wise, to believe that I can strike lottery without buying one is simply ridiculous. But I believe that GOD is looking after my welfare, so all I can do is wait and wait.


Purchase wise, I should start saving to replace my PC coming weeks. I need to change my spectacles soon. Maybe with enough budget, I could buy a new handpone coming april (most likely I should be taking back a NOKIA) and possibly a notebook by mid year 2010.


Finally the Motto for the year 2010….少則得，多則惑。。。知足常樂。
Be happy
GOD always bless
Cheers
Toii

Blog for december 09

十二月五日是我的小舅的結婚。那天早上，我便拿了假和我的外公去吉隆坡。我母親但心我的外公走路慢，而錯過十一點的巴士，便一早摧促我們要早出門。我和外公早上8.05便出門了。

到了柔佛車站才十點鐘，早了一個小時。我想，早到不如晚到吧。巴士十一點就開車了。中途只在休息站等了五分鐘。到吉隆坡已是下午四點十五分了。

第一次搭公車到吉隆坡，感覺那里的交通很擁擠。我的小舅用了一個小時才接到我們。那里的轉換站也沒有向馬六甲和柔佛一樣好。可能我下一次來會比較好吧。

傍晚，我們和我小舅的太太便到餐館用飯。之後便到我小舅的新家過夜。本來想要去我三舅那里的。但听說他最近都很忙，這几天也沒能照待我。我看下一次會等相當久吧。

晚上，我沒事作，便看三國演儀，打發時間。第二天也是一樣，我小舅的結禮沒有自已以為有的敬茶。因為這樣，我開始後悔早一天進來，而作不到東西。但也算了。當作是休息一下。

到傍晚，我的几個姨姨和舅舅從馬六甲到我小舅的家，坐了一下，大家便一起去到酒樓。到那已是六點三十分了。那里有十個桌左右，但好象很空的樣子。節目的開始就有牧師在講福音，之後唱教堂的聖歌。之後又是福音分享。平常會在婚禮听到或听到的情話和請歌，在這里到沒有。上半段几乎都都講耶穌的道理，這大概是我見過最神聖的婚禮吧。

到了八點左右才開始自助餐，本來很空的桌子，忽然來了很多人。難到是他們不想听福音？不得而知。

之後也有一些節目，和表演。但自已猜想，也應該是教會的人吧。

節目到九點是結束了。听我的舅舅講，在吉隆坡大部份的店面很早就停止營業。所以沒有地方可以去，只好早點回去体息。

第二天下午，我和我的小舅去百貨公司走了一下，下午四點坐巴士回新加坡。我的外公便隨我的姨姨回馬六甲。以上就是第一次到吉隆坡的經過。

很快的，2009年就要到尾聲了。工作方面還相當順利。在maple 方面，相當辛苦的打了3個等級。到了129。進度也還不錯吧。

接下來，我又會在馬來西亞呆個十天吧。


Wish all My friends a merry Christmas
I am going to miss celebrating birthday with my best friend “ siwei” / and Yuan Feng
Wish them happy Birthday on 26th dec

I shall stop here

God Bless
Cheers
Toii

Blog Aug

In this blog, I should write something for the long waited Secondary school gathering (BVSS black and white Reunion). I got the news of this reunion thru face book. It took months of effort for the organizers to come out with such a reunion. Although the cost is relatively expensive (40 dollars). But since this is the first event in 15 years old, I guess the money is worth spent.

I do try to call (email and msg) a few of my friends for this event, most didn’t reply and for those replied, and the response isn’t good. They are busy, I guess.

On the day (15 ague 2009), I left my house early to take bus to my old school. I was one of the early birds to reach BVSS at around 1840 hours. Other than registering my name and to receive a souvenir, I was largely left alone. So I spent my time walking around the school, I wasn’t allowed back the classrooms, so I went to have a walk at the garden. The front garden I knew had shifted to the back. The area had undergone massive renovation, and it is no longer the same as before. I took some photo to be posted later.

The activities finally started at 2000 hours. Before that, I mingle around and managed to see some of my old teachers and the ex principal, Mr. Ow. Student wise, I only managed to see a 3 people (Ali , Ashar and Rosita) from my class and a couple more from the 1993 batch. Overall some 200-300 people attended the event. As I look around, I see more Malay people around compared to Chinese, maybe Malay friends are better? I don’t know. Just hope more of my Chinese friends could come for the next round.

The event started with some speech by the present principal (Mrs. Tan), her talk mainly centered on fund raising issue where we were repeatly encourage to donate to the school.
Mr. Ow follow on the second speech reviewing what had happen since 1986. At least Mr. Ow’s speech look better. After that a buffet started, at least there were some vegetarian mee hoon that I could tuck in, beside that I also help myself to some cake.

Activities following were a group of dancers using table tennis racket as a dance item. After was a group of pop band (formed by ex Bukit viewers). The performance was pretty interesting as all of them have done their best. There were also lucky draw of 20 prizes to be won, but I wasn’t lucky enough to win any. Final event is the most appropriate dress contest.

The event stayed until 2230, which after that I left for home.

Overall the event is quite ok, I didn’t managed to make any new friends in this process, but this is most expected. I just hope that the next gathering should come as soon or at least before Aug next year.

Just a note for my personal thing, I had not been playing maple for a week. But since I promised myself to complete some reading, I should extend my ban for another fortnight, I do still play a bit of face book games, particularly FFS. Through some strangers out there, my value had raised to 25Million. It was far better than I have expected earlier.
Maybe this is something friends can’t help.

Last thing, in another month time, my birthday is coming. What should I wish? I have decided that I won’t have any wish this year. I might even be working on that day

God bless
Chees
Toii

blog for JUn/Jul

Times flies, and half of the difficult year 09 had passed. Although I had spent more than half of the time unemployed, but I must give thanks to GOD for giving me a job at the time I require the most.

The job I am doing now surely is not my preferred option. But as days goes by, I started to reduce my expectation. I have started to accept the fate that drafting should be my job scope for many years to come. It is good to admit that I am only slightly better in ACAD, and poor at others.

Colleague relationship has improved gradually over the period. Although I spent most of my lunch time alone, there are once a while my colleagues would compromise their lunch venue to bring me to place where there are vegetarian.

Finance wise, I still not out of the woods yet. I still the guy which dries up almost everything in his bank few days before another pay day arrives, but at least I managed to clear some of the overdue phone and internet bills last month.

Personal wise, it had been a difficult moments when I “quarreled with some people over the Face book game “Friends for sale”. I indeed upset over the fiasco, but not because of all remarks passed by Zhiwei, but rather that no one stand by my side to speak up for me.

Finally, I deleted 5 friends over this issue and blocked one people.
But looking backwards, what are the consequences? I guess I lost all this “friends”. For a while, I ponder on the meaning of friends. I guess I will never have a perfect answer for such difficult question.

Looking at friends as a whole, I start to realize that many of the friends I had in Face book or Friendster didn’t talk to me at all. So I must admit that if friends ignore me, it is perfectly alright. If I being treated invisible, it was because, we have no topic between us.
If I had known and accept these fact, I would not have placed high hopes that someone could speak up for me. Then I would not have done all the deletion. But things have been done and glass broken, they are not reversible.

I guess I can only look ahead. Treasure friendship when they are around, let go if the heart is no longer there. The lesson I learnt is to be less reliable to friends, be independent more often and take charge of my life. I must admit that without friends, life can be boring. But other than this, life still goes on. I could overcome this period by finding books to read, and meaningful things to do.

I should also strive to play less game, particularly with teenagers. I must constantly remind myself that I already a 30 plus year old uncle, I can’t be playing games with young gals and boys (like FFS). I strive not to quarrel over minor game issue, give in / give up and go away when required. During times of misunderstanding, keep quiet would be a better solution.

In simple words, I don’t believe In Miracle. i no longer desire to make new friends. I told myself, I had more then enough friends. I should strive to chat less to those “friends” which reluctant to chat with me. 知足還是一好事。

I still playing maple. But without the active participation of guild members, I have been largely playing with myself. The desire to “raise level” is no longer there and I just play it to pass time.

Looking forward, my main focus for the coming months would still be on my parents and my job and my FO tang activities. Other than all this, I should strive to keep away from the other activities.

I should joining Karaoke during the next month company function. By keeping colleague relationship smooth, I can get a longer and better working environment with IR.

God bless everything I do
I should not ask for more.
God bless
Cheers
Toii

blog march09

16 mar 09
Its have been a long while, since I was being out of job. I have sent multiple jobs resume’s through email and online. With none came back at all, I start to get worried if the company actually received them

I got the only interview at NUS this month. On that morning, I earnestly am trying to remember how to make a tie. It’s being such a long time since I last use a tie. I fail to do a proper one after numerous attempts. Fortunately, I managed to find a website that teaches how to do a Tie.

I have been so nervous that I didn’t eat anything. I drank a cup of coffee and make my way there. I reached the place (SOC building one) at 0955 hours, which was 25 minutes early.

During the interview, I was guided to a sofa seat to wait for my turn. I wasn’t required to fill up any form or being asked for my certificates. So I try to cool myself down, prepare to answer some difficult question that the interviewer might post later.

After waiting for 40 minutes, I was called into the room with 3 interviewers. Despite such a large group (of interviewers) only the guy sitting in the center is doing something (asking questions) and the remaining two typically keeping quiet most of the time. I see a whole big stake of resumes in front of each of the interviewer. By counting number of resumes, I can see that at least 8-10 people and scheduled to be interviewed today

It turns out to be an “informal chat” which the guy passes poor comments on issues like my “useless adv Diploma and negative comments on my experience in MET office. When I ask about the job scope, the interviewer gave me an impression that the job is dull, and desk bound. It seems to me that they themselves have no passion in the work they do.

After a 15 minutes informal talk, I left the room. I guess the interview wasn’t a success. Since I can’t impress the interviewer, I should not bear any hope for the second interview.
Furthermore, I sincerely believe the job might not be suitable for me.


23 mar 09
After being unemployed for 6 weeks, I waited in vain for any more company to call for interview. My mother suggested I should visit the MP during the weekly meet the people sessions. I wasn’t very keen on the idea. But since I do not have any other option, I had to go and try my luck.

I went the area (Blk 184) in Taman Jurong at 0705 pm. There were already 20 odd people in front of me wanting to see the MP. I waited until 0745 before a guy came, took my IC and pass me a number (30). I waited another 30 minutes before my name has been called, where I sit in front of a female staff for verification of my purpose of seeing the MP.

It took another 20 minutes of waiting before I can go into the room for a session of interview. I did not see the MP as two volunteer staff attended to me instead. The session took less than a minute as the guy decides that going to CDC at Jurong east will be a more straight forward approach. From there I went home.

Looking backwards, taking almost two hours wait just to do a 5 minute interview seems a little waste of time. But then the staffs there were pretty helpful and friendly. I just hope all this effort could land me a job either permanent or temporary.

Finally, I should update on my personal life. Maple wise, I managed to complete Zak with the help of Guild mate, which mainly is “Ben”, “Max”, “sakura” and a few others. With the helm, I able to hunt higher level mob with increased accuracy (+22 acc). From
Here, I should strive for the 4th job coming days. I had brought 10k of A cash, planning for one day 2X and 2X drop.

Other things wise, I should just place them aside, job finding will be top priority, I convinced I will not have a chance at all for a GF for the year 2009 and beyond. I should strive to save more for my parents if any employment comes my way. Being single can be very nice when I see from a certain angle. Be contend, I believe 2009 will be the toughest year I ever endure.

I believe God bless
Cheers

09年﹐一段慢長的三百六十五天

今年零九年是牛年﹐股票是否像牛一樣上昇﹐還是像熊一樣下墜。每個人似乎不看好今年的走勢﹐大概我也一樣吧。


工作而言﹐一天不如一天。公司生意近來非常的差﹐同事doreen被rosalind逼走了﹐身為經理的jeffery竟然一句話也沒有說。作了十個月的同事﹐經理好在也應該幫doreen爭取到一點的福利。然而他卻沒有。或許你會告訴我﹐現在是一個非常現實的社會。每個人都之為自己著想﹐公司老闆也是一樣。如不賺錢﹐減薪裁員正常事。對公司忠心﹐這年頭不管用了。這幾天﹐我反復在聽周迅唱的歌﹐外面的世界。我要告訴自己﹐今年一定要離開。吹熄了蠟燭﹐願望就是離開。一離開﹐就不再回來。還記得另外一首﹐走出去就有路﹐尋見的就是福。但願這一天快點來。

感情而言﹐還是一樣。一個人寂寞了好些。看左看右﹐偏偏看不到機會﹐搭不上任何一輛感情巴士。在巴士站待了好久﹐好久。要等多久﹐我的她才會出現。感覺自己有點笨﹐有些被動。但相信﹐我也只可以這樣的等下去。日子還是要過的。所以我常記住一句話﹐
日子﹐不想過﹐也得過。不要過﹐也過得差不多了。

兩個願望足夠了﹐知足才會開心。

慧臺上

telok Blangah hill outing

On September 14, I went trekking with a group of my FO tang friends. Although I have heard of the bridge a couple of times either from newspaper or passing by a few times, this are the first time I actually visit the long bridge (probably the longest bridge is south East Asia)

We reached Hortpark around 9am. We waited a while for all the people to be gathered.
There a couple of twenty odd people with adults and children. We started moving off around 0920min.The whole journey took 1.3km. The bridge was approximately 3-4 storeys high from the ground; it seems a little scary at the start. But after walking a while, the feeling slowly faded.

I took some photo on the bridge along the way, and candid photo of my friend walking up the hill. Some of them are resistant to photo taking, so I can only manage to shoot very few quality photos.

We reached Telok Blangah hill after 40 minutes of walk. We took shelter on a very big
“ting”. We started all activities starting with “Cang Hai” exercise. Later, we turn in to enjoy some snacks. It was told that everyone should bring some food meant for 10 people. But it turn out that many of them has brought much more. Thus the crackers I brought along have no takers, and I have to bring the whole 3 packet back home.

We have 2 more activities after that, it was more localized and more controlled compared to the previous outing at ECP. I guess the organizers should be happier this round.

At 1135, we started to leave the compound and return to Hortpark. The walk back is relative more easily, and a few of us took short cut (to walk staircase instead).On the other hand, the weather had became rather hot and left me sweating once I reached Hortpark. Luckily, there a small air conditioned room so I can “blow “aircon”

Finally all of us went for the nearby hawker center to do our lunch. During the time, they also sang birthday songs to two of the birthday girls. I missed on the occasion as I was delayed trying to find a parking lot. But it’s ok; I can sing birthday song to myself.

Finally, we dispersed at around 2 pm, and that’s the end of the event. Overall, most of the people plus me were relatively happy. I am not sure if the education part was achieved. But at least, our friendship bond grows a bit stronger.



Work wise, things look rather the same. It didn’t get any better; on the other hand, it didn’t get worse either. I got another 2 car since the last car meeting, bringing the total number to 8 cars. The boss hasn’t been talking to me at all. To be precise, he is not in office most of the time. This is the first company where the boss is doing nothing at all to help improve company (at least I can’t see them)

I have started to find jobs either through Job Street or newspaper. LTA came back with one interview at 13 Oct; I must be prepared fully for it. It isn’t really much of engineering based, so I guess chances are pretty low. But if I do really hit on it, I might really jump out of engineering and into something else. For the future, I can’t decide how things really go, I have to walk one step at a time, God bless!!



Maple wise, I got a level 104, things were fairly ok. I spam significantly amount of meso while training at Red Kentaurus. I guess I would have to slow down and start farming meso, probably after I hit level 110. I am planning a 2x for the coming 30 – 1st Oct 08.during this time, I hope to clear exp from 150% to 225%, and anything more would not be desirable


Something on my birthday, although I have chosen to work on 25th, I took leave on the 26th so I can enjoy a long weekend and also took a miss to the most difficult “car” meeting. I spent most of the time in the morning playing maple. Without the planned 2x, leveling is pretty slower. But I have to bear with it, maple are like that. After all it’s only a game. I also took instant noodle and coke which is part of my favorite (and unhealthy food).

I didn’t have as much message greetings as I expected. But nevertheless, with greetings from Siwei, Yunfu, JieKun, Waimun and Weibo, I guess things aren’t so bad either. As the old says, three is equivalent to many, and now I had five. Thus I find no reason to complain. Beside this, I also received a present from FO tang people (a photo album bearing the picture of Garfield and Co). A very nice though of them. I didn’t received any card from my insurance agent, maybe she quited? I didn’t hear from her for half a year.

Now come for wishes for the year 2008. I guess one word can cover every wish for the coming years, “NOTHING”. I guess over my 32 birthdays, nothing had really change, I don’t remember any wish I made all this while come true. I had been difficult in my studies, my works and / or my relationship. Or in a simple word, I lead a difficult life. I guess in times of difficulties, I remind myself the importance of striving hard and hope for less.

I just hope I can keep my head above the water in terms of financial, and ability to help my parents whenever they need me. Doing FO tang activities are priority one for me, other than that, I should just play maple whenever I am free, or I should read books.
Keeping single and quiet is necessary for me.

With Children day coming, I wish all children (and non children) a happy Children day
Hari raya coming on the same day, so I should wish all Muslim a great festival day


Cheers
Toii