Its May already!! A month has passed, so I should give a brief skim through of April.
I have been particular quiet for the recent months, in so that my life has become some sort of monotone life.
I spent my time plying between work and home, and other then time with my holy shrine, I spent the rest of it in front of my pc playing maplesea. Recently, I had been addicted to playing maple, so much alike with those heavily dependent on drinks and cigrates. I playing almost every day, and with such hard work, I only managed to do a level up once in a week or even more. I would at times get upset if I " die " and lost around 5percent of exp. With such stupid activities, I was running out time for the rest of my activities. I fall short of doing exercises, and I read much less. I find insufficient time to read my email, chat at msn or do my monthly report. I had not met up with my friends for quite a while and in simple words, its seam’s like I get more depressed. But looking backwards, I could only be occupied by my game playing, so I would not have other things to be sad of. For maple, I have done only 10 levels since mid February and a slow improvement.
Financially, I should look slightly better. My father finally got a job (with his friend recommendation), and can be financially independent. So I spent less on his bill (he pays by himself). But then the bad part is, since he is working 6 full days a week, I wasn’t able to see him for quite a while. His only free day is Sunday, which at most of it, my time was fully booked in holy shrine. So I would have to tell myself, if I were at anytime free on Sunday, I will have to find time to see him. But then, for me to buy anything (or maybe a motorcycle); I would have to wait until July as I need to clear my van insurance the month before. The cost as I looking at around 1000 bucks, so if I’m able to pass this difficult time, then I would just buy a cheap bike for a start. But then, things are unpredictable so I would update again when times get nearer.
Work wise, I had been in STK for 4 months, and are eligible for leaves. Things are pretty normal, with exception that I can't really talk to some of the staff there. With the exception of one or two, I didn’t enjoy cordial relation with any of the staff here. Maybe it was because our topic was always different, their topic were mostly centered about women (our department are almost all guys), food and fishing. I wasn’t good at singing, soccer or bowling and could not join them in any of their activities. I spent most of lunch eating alone. I spent most of my time staring onto the wall and at times dozing off. There are people who frown the moment when they see me, particularly one of the two ladies in our department (seok Hoon), you can see that she can interact with almost anyone in the office, but in fact i had not talked to her ever even once during the 4 months stint. I guess it was because I treated them bad in my last life, so I reap what I sow. But then, there are things I can't worry, and I guess this is one of them. I guess I can be self sufficient being alone. With friends things are good. But without them, life still goes on. I must not worry.
Other things to write, I heard that weixin Jie jie is getting married 13 may this year, and also qiu ping is getting married this year also ( with Jinrong ). Such news is always good to be heard, with this year a great year for marriage. But at times, I would ponder on when’s my turn.
When I see how cordial relationship was happening in quiping and Jinrong, I guess it would be great if I had any girl staring me in this way, so I would just get married, but then looking forward, this event would never happen. I might just fold my arms and wait, and I should wait for a very long time.
For the month of May, I should continue to be without any wish. Other then playing my stupid maple, I should strive to do some reading (' whenever or buses or so whatever). Maple wise, I should try to clear level 50 so I could return to ellinia on 26May or possibly 02 June. with my leave available, I may just take leave this Friday and rest a while, celebrate weixin Jie Jie's marriage (on my own) , and another event is Nicole's birthday at 2 Jun. I had not seen her for a very long time, just hope she is fine.
I should stop here for the while
God bless
Cheers
toil
