I have been missing someone (YJ) recently. Someone, whom I shouldn’t, had been thinking at all. If this happens 10 years ago or more, I would have easily convinced it is love. But today, I must admit that I’m more than confused then convinced. I can’t believe that I am missing someone 14 year old younger than my age. I used to believe that 6-8 years in age gap is the maximum I can accept for a relationship. Secondly, it is again another tall girl, possibly 5 cm taller (or more) than myself (I guess). I wonder why the gals that I like were so tall. Is there anything wrong with myself? Or is it with my expectation? Maybe I should seek help from someone “up” there, or “out” there, somewhere but don’t know where. ( hahaha)
Jokes aside, I tell myself, I have convinced myself that theoretically, this kind of relationship can’t work. But practically, I must admit that I take a very long while to overcome this difficult time. I will miss being called “Ah ma”. This “Ah ma” will be different from the fierce “Ah ma” (Anego)
from maple (and her famous Ah ma slap). Instead I will spent more time smiling and stay cheerful. Fortunately, this someone is a girl that I won’t have the chance to see often, most probably once a year bah. She doesn’t use pc often, and had no face book or anything like that.
Looking back at the year 2009 at the two wishes I made, here’s a briefly review on the status.
1) Work - I wish to change for a better job with better prospect and better pay.
Results - I am now with a new employment. It’s a better job with a better pay, but
prospect wise, I guess not very good. I am still holding a pure drafting job with a year
contract. But then the things that have changed a lot are my expectation. I start to expect
less, give more, no longer complaining about anything. As long as I can get a decent pay
and pass time, I guess I have no other wishes.
2) Love –wishes for a GF
Results - 0(zero), nothing happen. No progress at all. Reason I guess it’s was because I ran
out of courage, out of steam and out of power. I had done nothing at all in this particular
directions, I guess results is perfectly ok.
Looking beyond to 2010, what wishes do I want to have? I guess I would just want to maintain the same quota. As long things don’t get worse, I guess it should be some good news to me. LOVE wise, to believe that I can strike lottery without buying one is simply ridiculous. But I believe that GOD is looking after my welfare, so all I can do is wait and wait.
Purchase wise, I should start saving to replace my PC coming weeks. I need to change my spectacles soon. Maybe with enough budget, I could buy a new handpone coming april (most likely I should be taking back a NOKIA) and possibly a notebook by mid year 2010.
Finally the Motto for the year 2010….少則得，多則惑。。。知足常樂。
Be happy
GOD always bless
Cheers
Toii
Jokes aside, I tell myself, I have convinced myself that theoretically, this kind of relationship can’t work. But practically, I must admit that I take a very long while to overcome this difficult time. I will miss being called “Ah ma”. This “Ah ma” will be different from the fierce “Ah ma” (Anego)
from maple (and her famous Ah ma slap). Instead I will spent more time smiling and stay cheerful. Fortunately, this someone is a girl that I won’t have the chance to see often, most probably once a year bah. She doesn’t use pc often, and had no face book or anything like that.Looking back at the year 2009 at the two wishes I made, here’s a briefly review on the status.
1) Work - I wish to change for a better job with better prospect and better pay.
Results - I am now with a new employment. It’s a better job with a better pay, but
prospect wise, I guess not very good. I am still holding a pure drafting job with a year
contract. But then the things that have changed a lot are my expectation. I start to expect
less, give more, no longer complaining about anything. As long as I can get a decent pay
and pass time, I guess I have no other wishes.
2) Love –wishes for a GF
Results - 0(zero), nothing happen. No progress at all. Reason I guess it’s was because I ran
out of courage, out of steam and out of power. I had done nothing at all in this particular
directions, I guess results is perfectly ok.
Looking beyond to 2010, what wishes do I want to have? I guess I would just want to maintain the same quota. As long things don’t get worse, I guess it should be some good news to me. LOVE wise, to believe that I can strike lottery without buying one is simply ridiculous. But I believe that GOD is looking after my welfare, so all I can do is wait and wait.
Purchase wise, I should start saving to replace my PC coming weeks. I need to change my spectacles soon. Maybe with enough budget, I could buy a new handpone coming april (most likely I should be taking back a NOKIA) and possibly a notebook by mid year 2010.
Finally the Motto for the year 2010….少則得，多則惑。。。知足常樂。
Be happy
GOD always bless
Cheers
Toii
