七月的感想

一年当中，每几个月之间，总会经历很多准备“资料”的困难。这个月在“始终”的资料里，准备的相当辛苦。近一个月，都没有时间做别的东西。连上个月想一个人的方式去HOTPARK 的计划都一而再的暂延，或许要到月底，还是下个月去会实现了吧。虽然努力了不少，但还是被人“嫌”的感觉是不好受的。总觉得，常常以“道理正确”的角度来指点他人的人来说，世上这样的人还真的不少。但能够真正了解对方，能给予“及时雨”建议的人来说，真的是少之又少。和自己说，人生最重要对得起“天地良心”，对于其他“不善”的建议，不要放在心上。和自己说，应该远离一些“看不起自己和不尊重自己的人”就算没有人问候和关心，也是可以的。

讲到上个月去到west mall 的“职业与培训展”。感觉几乎没有什么职业的前景，几乎只有“花钱”上课的份。这次还是花政府“慷慨“给与每个40岁以上的4000元 读书“的津贴。有照着书本的电邮写给对方，两个礼拜了，还没有任何回应。网上是有相当多的课程。但真的读了就会找到新的工作？感觉这些读书机构只是以赚钱为主。读新的知识能不能帮到自己，还是一个大问题。想想未来几个月把重心放在看道理书，学日本和学二胡。等到现在的工作做不下去之后，才来打算吧

这个月的消费还是比较高，客厅的风扇坏了，又得买新的。鞋也坏了，又要买新的。游戏也花了不少钱，但只要不好色，有一些正当的心灵寄托也是好事吧。这个月有开始几次的游泳，从开始只能游250米，现在可以游450米了。什么是有好的开始，有动力，就有进步的空间。

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一个人必须很开心

GOD　bless all the time , 慧台

jobs and Skills Info Kiosk 2024

It has been quite a while since I last email for any new job opening. I guess getting any better jobs without any skill upgrades would be very difficult if not impossible. I managed to see some “jobs and skills booth “happening at west mall (bukit batok), maybe I should step out of my confort zone to visit the booth to see what I can learn in a short to mid-term prospect.

Last Saturday（29jun）, I managed to get some time to visit the booth at west mall. Although it is around 130pm by the time I reached there , there wasn;t as many people attaneding the event as I thought. There were not many brochures either. A lady staff attended to me and walk me thru the registration process. It was not been very clear on what exact course I eligible or wants to take, but after talking to the staff on my present situation, she do agreed that I should find some interesting course (diploma) to do . I was supposed to talk to another expert staff to discuss on my future courses, but the appointment with the staff has been full for the rest of the day. I guess I can only think thru my myself and make some decisions soon.

Looking forward, I should work hard on improving myself mentally and physically. It is only recently I realized that I still had 80over dollars of SGactive credit to be expiring end of 2024. I guess I can only use these credits in swimming pools. probably I would increase my time going to swimming pool to swim.

游戏方面,“帅哥” 终于提早两个月冲“帝”。但讲好会让步的大神，临时却反悔，执意要冲自己的小号。总以为会在资质榜能最少拿15000分的我，结果连13000都拿不到。最后还是无缘领到“忠帝”的称号。想想也只能怪自己太天真，总以为先讲过，大神就会让位。但真实来说，还是靠自己努力才比较实在。未来来说，不会再努力冲什么“王”，还是什么“帝”，该上分就上分，赚一点小奖励就好。游戏会玩多久都是一个未知数，要及时玩开心就好。

时间很快的过了半年，回顾半年的成绩，总感觉自性提升的不够好，也不够快。过错还是常常犯。下半年要加倍努力，不要为自己的过错找理由。错了就改。接下来的日子，要学会习惯寂寞，和孤单做朋友。什么事，什么理想都只能和一个人的我有关系。今天能努力什么，就赶快努力，空闲的时候，多看书，少胡思乱想，反正奇迹是不会出现的。 写到这里，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

一百天了

时间很快（或许也很慢）。从三月五号，到现在也有100天了。这段自我克制的漫长岁月里，也过得不容易。在这困难的日子中，念头还是浮浮沉沉的，有时还是起了不好的念头。乐观来说，最少这些日子之后，欲望少了很多，手机里已经没有什么不好的东西了。早上起来，多想一下学习二胡方面，有什么可以提升的。晚上睡觉前，多看经典，想想什么还没改过的。每天总要找一句话来提醒自己。或许就是这句。。

誠實面對自己：每天一定要找個時間，選個方式自我對話。睡覺前，借着日記或自省表，更或者只是簡單的反省，問問自己今天做了什麼事，說些什麼話，想過怎樣的念頭，有沒有值得留存的回憶，有沒有需要改進的地方，然後做個誠意的回向、懺悔，幫助自己過濾生活中的雜質，提昇生命的智慧寶藏。

游戏方面，近来“充值”不少,一天的花费有时可以高达38元。但托了自己的花费和梦醉的帮忙，拿到了第五个“王”，得到了第一个知县的称号 （感觉效果没有比想象的多。）在联盟赛中，在“舌战群儒”方面拿到了不错第四名。在半决赛对垒“龙凤”惨败，想想的确“龙凤”的盟友实力比较优越，彼此也比较团结，赢是应该的。这里应该恭喜他们称“帝”吧。

在二胡方面，没有老师教的日子也要一个月了。自己学习的缺点就是常常拿不定主意应该从那里下手，以致技巧很难有进步的空间。想想未来几个月，找几个简单的乐谱来练习。多重视歌谱的节奏，什么时候该全弓，什么时候应该半弓，要分的很清楚。基本功拉的好，慢慢来也是好事。反正学二胡，要成为高手，至少还要五年以上的努力。

未来的路来说，我应该记得鼓励自己的一句话，只要做上帝喜欢的东西，就叫“道” 。能做母亲喜欢的东西，这就叫做“孝”，只要有“道”既能“孝”，人生应该很好了，“我”会不会开不开心一点都不重要。反正这辈子没有朋友，也不会谈恋爱，一辈子一个人是必然的。重点在于“六祖”所云 “正来烦恼除，邪来烦恼至”

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一辈子一个人是可以的

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

飞机场（jewel) 和 garden by the bay 一日游

30号，二姨坐了霸王车从马六甲来到新加坡来看我母亲。难得她能出来新加坡，应该多花一些时间和她出外走走。错过一些佛堂的节目也是可以的吧。我二姨会在新加坡呆一个礼拜，有几天的晚上都去到外面吃饭。星期五的晚上，有带二姨去姐姐的家坐坐。当天晚上，姐夫和大女儿不在。二姨有和姐姐聊了一下（最少姐姐还是记得二姨吧）.

星期六旁晚有和二姨，母亲走到附近的游泳池。因为二姨走路很慢 (脚又痛)，真的不能走太多。花了20分钟才走到500米。自己还得驾车去到公园载二姨回。

礼拜天安排了去机场花园走走。早上九点先到自在斋吃roti prata。 食物是蛮不错的，就是比较贵。之后有一路到机场 （jewel ） 走走。到那里接近11点了。有早瀑布那里拍了几张照片。二姨不能走很多。有一半的时间坐在椅子上休息。之后有到5楼的canopy park 走一下。

下午回到了B1 的GreenDot 吃午饭。难得机场附近有可以吃的素食。食物虽然贵了一些，但也蛮不错的。之后，本来要去到二姨想到的新加坡摩天观景轮。但上网看了价钱，一个人要40新币，感觉就是太贵了。之后才改变路程，去到了garden by the bay 走走。到那里已经要三点了。外面开始下起雨来。

有花一些钱到Floral fantasy 参观了一下。地方相当的小，但里面看到的东西也不少。加上一个关于graden by the bay 的 4D 视频。也不错吧。到了4点，二姨很累，不能去别的地方了，只能提早回家。

一天的行程就这样结束了。虽然花了一些钱，但能走到的景点都有走到。感觉还是好的。

写到这里。和自己说，不会谈恋爱的，一个人一定会很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

五月的心情（学习二胡的回顾）

回顾了这半年学二胡的经验。从1月21日到5月19日，总共学习了10次的二胡。和之前的siyu 老师来说，这次的老师（junrui） 教的方式截然不同。和siyu 老师学习22次左右，基本都没有讲到要用什么节拍器，把位和音符常常按跑位，老师也没有特意去纠正。但每一两个次的课程之后，都能学到新的歌曲，其实对自己是好的，能增加自己在二胡上的兴趣。

Junrui 老师则很不一样，一开始就显得非常严格，先把自己的基本打好，一定要有好的手势，确保每一个音都要对着节拍器走，音跑一点点都不行。开始的两三课，来的比较严厉，感觉是好的，能让我培养比较好的习惯。但过于的严厉，以致学了10趟课，都还在基本工打转，老师也一直不愿教一些新的东西。整整10课，都练不完一首简单的歌谱 （半首都不到）。老师一直在D调打转，简单的一些动作和换把位，一直重复在讲。连G调都碰不到，就不用说，自己想要学的F调了。

到了最后一堂课（19号）, 本来决定要多加十堂课的自己。在学习保留指的时候，自己的手型的缘故，没有办法同时很准的打到二指（re）和三指 (mi) 的位置。老师有暗示自己的手型或许不适合练二胡。想想他讲这句话的潜台词，应该是要自己放弃不要继续课程吧。还是尊重老师的意见，就不再加课程了，也可以省一些钱来打游戏。

未来而言，和自己说，不论发生什么事，也不要再回到那里上课。课程又贵，又学不到东西。不过自己学了这么久的二胡，怎么可能就放弃呢？ 想想在网上其实也有很多教二胡的老师。网上学习或许也是个不错的选择。但需要告诉自己，学习要有很高的自律。要时常找机会自我练习，才不会把所学的忘了（还给老师）

其他方面，这个月都比较静，所以没有什么特别的理由写博客。有在努力看书，准备7月份的资料和八月的耻，所谓的“日就月将” ，每日都有进步，每月都有成就。这个月。开始了每个星期六出去公园，跑步15分钟，能保持一些体力，也是好事。前几天去看牙医，才补了两颗门牙，就花了455元（几贵一下）。钱花了，只希望从现在，多照顾牙齿。不然等牙柱才看牙医，将会花更多钱。

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一个人一定要很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

Annual Dinner and Dance 2024

The annual Dinner and Dance have arrived. Although I was not keen on attending such event, but if I do not go , probably I might end up to be labeled as anti-social (I think). After all , since I had missed a few of the earlier events organized by the company, I should just say yes for once to the yearly event .

The theme for the D&D was once a time in Asia. In order to encourage maximum D&D themed dress up participation, the Welfare Committee has added a Best Dressed Group Award on top of best dressed individual awards. But I decide to just wear normal t-shirt and jeans. Afterall , I don’t think I stand any chance of winning any prize and since I am the least popular person in the company, no one would ever be bothered if I ever do up any special dresses.

On the Friday, my company released us early at around 12 midday. I went home to rest a bit before setting out to the hotel at Bugis street at around 5oclock. I reach the venue at around 1800 hours. Around half of my colleagues came in special costumes, and majority of those came in mainly ancient Chinese Qing dynasty wear. I was given the table number 10, and I spent most of the time seating on the chair playing my handphone games rather than mixing with my colleagues (quite a number of them are probably new colleagues that I never came across or even talked before.

The event started at around 1930 hours. it started with host opening the night and inviting the MD for the opening speech. Talking about business profitability, the MD didn’t mention anything much, probably no news equals to good news.

Afterwards , the meals starts to come in. the food were relatively ok and not too much , probably not too much wastage. On my table , there were Goh , khine , Nuru and a few others. Other than Goh that chatted with me for a few minutes , I wasn’t familiar with the rest of the colleagues, and we probably didn’t chat at all .

unfortunately or otherwise , I accidentally got the role of the table lead to take a group selfie photo and spent a few minutes playing game on the stage. The MC started by getting every lead of the table to do a self-introduction and to answer questions like why you like your boss. By standing at the end of the row, I was basically being skipped before I could answer both questions. Some comments that the MC made such as “ I can’t dance and can’t sing “ makes me a little upset , but to think again , probably he is saying the right thing. To be positive, I just do whatever I can do to my myself happy. At the end of the 10 minutes , each of us get a small prize (10 dollar voucher). And is it a good thing after all .

After that , they are a performance on Sze chuan mask changing act . the performance was pretty interesting , although there a little lack of interaction between the actor and the audience. Soon there are competition on the individual costumes and group costume . winners of both event are decided by how loud the audience cheers , and in the group event wise , the simple wears of the 60s miraculously came in victorious against the expensive wear of the Qing dynasty. These shows that renting expensive costume does not guarantee victory .

finally coming to the lucky draw , there are 15 prizes to be won , but I was simply not lucky enough to win anything. At the end of the night , I managed to take some photos with colleagues that comes near my table . at 1045, I went home , ending the once a year event.

Looking forward , I might just skip most of the company activities ( if I can ) . This month would continue to be a relatively busy month where I would strive to read more book , spent more time on learning japanese , and practicing more on my er hu. Furthermore , I should start doing a bit jogging again just to keep a little more fit.

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台