a photo session with Mr Tharman at Taman Jurong CC

Last week , I managed to go to the nearby CC for a photgraph taking session with my present MP( SM Tharman). The presidency election would be here in the coming months and Mr tharman has indicted his intention of running for the top office , and he would have to quit all his duty in PAP in order to be eligible for the top post. Since this would be the last time he would be meeting the residents as a mp, there would be a photo taking session held to Taman jurong CC on to give a warm farewell to the MP

I reached the CC with my mum at around 6 pm. There was a huge crowd of people waiting to take pictures with Mr Tharman and his wife , and we were sitted down and waited for 40 minutes for our turn to take pictures . during the process , we met another MP shawn ( likely to be the caretaker MP for the rest of this term) doing his round of making himself known to the resident . Finally, its our turn to take photo with Mr Tharman. He look visibly tired after such a long day taking photo, I didn’t managed to talk to him , just a photo , and we left . after that , we took some dessert on the ground floor , and there is also some performance there too .

Looking backwards , Mr Tharman is indeed a good mp of taman jurong. Even I am not exactly a PAP supporter , but I would say that Mr Tharman service as a MP from 2001 to 2023 is significant and benefical to the residents in taman jurong

Looking forward, talking about the president election that was due to be held in September , I guess he would certainly be the future president-elect due to his popularity and experience. Whether or not would there be competitors coming forward would not likely diminish his chance of becoming president ( this is what I guess ). After all, what can the president do for the people ( in layman words ) is something I really do not know.

For the coming national day , I should spare some time to visit the istana open house , and maybe if Im lucky enough , I might see President Halimah for the last time at the Istana . I see if any of my friends would join me for the visit. If not , Im ok visiting alone.

I should stop here for you , 一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

摄影课的下半场

今天又回到了原来的学堂，上摄影的下半段的课程。今天主要是学习软件。editing software， 自己在电脑和手机都有下载了CAP CUT的软件。早上大半在讲解网上一些不同的软件，和它们的优缺点，以免费软件来说，还是CAPCUT 比较好，但不久的将来，还是有可能被AI 所取代。

之后，大家下载了上个礼拜拍的短视频，开始剪接成为一分钟的短视频。感觉基本功不难上手，但里面还是有很多，自己不熟的功能。只能不断的练习才学的会

中午午餐，还是回到原来的素食馆吃饭. 这次叫了一个炒饭，又贵又少菜，也不是很好吃。同学当中也有一个是吃素的 （ francis ）（发一组）,有交换联络方式，希望未来有机会可以出来喝茶

下午回到课堂，学习很多不同的editing 的技巧，对自己受益还是很多的，学到了很多技术如加速，放慢，加影响等等。这些技能还是要多多练习，才会上手。最后完成了一分钟的视频给老师看。节目到了1725就结束了。之前有一起拍了合照，放在老师的手机里。课程后，想在WHatsapp msg 联系老师，但一点回应都没有。（大概身为网红的他，没有时间回应吧！）。之后自己也在网上买了一个自拍器，能够提升一下拍摄的技巧。

讲到旅游方面的东西，去美国的行程大概已经确定下来了。从10月7号开始，先去夏威夷，呆4天，然后，再坐晚上的班机到洛杉矶。在那里呆4 天，第五天，才飞到温哥华，在温哥华呆到21 号 （4天）。整个行程不是普通的贵，花费最少要6千五以上，如果没意外，下个月或许就可以订飞机票了。和自己说。未来的事情有很多不确定性，但总要以一个了个乐观的心态去面对。和朋友出国是不可能的，自己一个人学会一个人的开心。

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

a friday nite watching Transformer

It has been a very long while since I ever stepped into a cinema to watch a movie. The last time I ever watched a movie was 2019 where I watched the spiderman Movie also with my colleagues. Guess what, if not for the company effort , I probably will not be stepping into the cinema for a very long time.

This time , the company had chosen another similar movie ( transformer )。Recently, the relationship between me and my colleagues wouldn’t be very good , I ponder quite a while if it would necessary to go for such outing. But finally , I decided to say yes . After all , the movie outing would be the only show I ever watched in the year 2023

On the Friday, I worked until 530 , where I visited a new vegetarian stall at the former big box. The stall was pretty quiet at 6 pm . I wonder how long the vegetarian stall can last . Afterwards , I took a rest at the library before heading to jem for the transformer movie at 8 pm

Since I had started to learn videograhy , I should take some short clip to be posted on the tiktok and Ig. I took some video but most of them were pretty bur due to lack of lighting . I reached the cinema hall at 1950 hours . The company had actually booked the whole cinema hall solely for our company . Half of the colleagues managed to bring their family along . Since I still single , I can only bring myself . The movie was pretty interesting with an predictable ending.

Looking forward , I guess this should be the last movie I could ever watch with the company. If there are any more future welfare activities for this year, I should politely reject them so that I could spent more time on holy shrine activities. Job finding hasn’t been easy, but I would try to speed up the process

写到这里，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

学习摄影的日子-2023（一）

自从好几年前，和毅辉买到了比较便宜的相机到现在，都没有真正的上课来学用买到的东西。之前有上YOUTUBE看了一些视频，但也是一知半解，要等朋友有空来教自己，真的是等久都没有。同样的问题，上一次去到北海道旅行的时候，相机很多时候，因为很蒙，拍出来的效果很差。总以为是相机出毛病了，之后有拿去修理中学看了一下，才发现是自己在设定方面的问题，只要调一下就可以了。想想如果之前有朋友能多给意见，就不会BLUR 到家。说回来，现在的我，身边没有真正可以聊到一起的朋友。或许这也是命，但也不好过多的埋怨，一个人也是可以的 （ 只不过学习路上都会比较辛苦吧）

五月3号

四月尾上网签了两天的 videography course, 因为可以扣政府skill future 的 钱，就自己去上一下吧。为了要多熟悉自己用的相机，之前的一天，我还特别勉强自己到植物园去走一下，拿相机拍一下，希望在技术方面有些进步。早上730起床，天气还蛮好的。坐巴士到植物园，大概用了40分钟。植物园相当大一下，感觉走半天，不一定走的完。和自己说，不用特意去拍“人” 的照片，多学会欣赏风景，花花或草草，最少在拍风景照时，风景是不会投诉的。园里没有免费的WIFI，打游戏只能用自己的网路。里面走了两个小时，拍了一些照片，但好不好也只能凭感觉，要把放上电脑，才会体会到那些需要改进的。到了1100左右，才有BUGIS 吃饭，结束半天的植物园旅行。

五月4号

早上0700分起床，吃了早餐就坐地铁到tanjong pagar 站　(international plaza , ispizone pte ltd ) 去上两天的课程。和我一起上课的还有三位男士　（另外三位男士临时退课了），感觉少了女生的课室，有些小小的失望。老师 (Adrian Lee) 开始先自我介绍，原来他也是IG 和TIKtOK 的其中一个网红。早上比较多在讲不同的社交网站的一些不同 （ FB、 IG 和TIKtok ），自己因此也下载了TIKTOK。早上也有学到拍摄一些简短的视频。

中午1230 ，三位同学很快就走出去了，只能自己吃饭。上HappY COW ， 有看到TANJONG PAGAR Food center 有素食，外面下着大雨，走过去也很不容易。到了那里，才发现两间斋店都没有开。自能去到比较贵的环球素食吃午餐，那里的食物还是不错的，或许下个礼拜也会过去。

下午回到课室上课。下午的时段，老师比较多讲到拍摄的效果和技术 和灯光的重要 ，虽然都只是是简单入门，但也获益良多。未来的科技有很大可能被AI 取代 ，以后很多工作不用人力去拍，只要输入想要的程序，AI 就可以模拟到更好的短视频。这到底是个好消息还是恐怖的事情，只有时间才能证明了。讲到相机，老师又说现在的科技，用DSLR 来拍Video 是不太行的（ 都用Mirrorless Technique），自己的D700 也已经是落后的科技的，想想是否该买新的相机呢？只能看一步走一步了.

老师教到五点半就准时放学，和其他三位同学没有什么机会聊到一起。或许大家来学的目的都不太一样，所以没有可以聊的话题。想想也就算了，因为不是女生，有时也少了要和他们搭讪的动力，多在自己的学习发面下功夫，下个礼拜还会学用editing software.

第一天的学习课程暂时写到这里，和自己说，不会谈恋爱的，一个人也可以很开心。

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

Company D&D 2023

The traditional dinner and dance event is here again for the year 2023. Compared to the previous years where D&D was held in April. This year would be slightly one month later, and it would mark the 12th year I stayed in the company.

I have opt to attend the event a month ago , only to find out that this year dinner would be a buffet style. Buffet style means all meals would be cooked in house , although there are meals label vegetarian, but some of them contain cheese , onion or garlic. Not exactly vegetarian, but more rather than just vegetables instead. Since I had say yes in the first place , it would not be good to back out in the last minute, after all it might be my last D&D in the company.

The event costume is set to be a tropical scene, since I don’t really have friends to discuss on type of costume to wear , I should just wear plainly t-shirt and jeans .

On the Friday, we were allowed to knock off on mid day . I went home and catch a sleep before going to the hotel at suntec City. I reached the venue at around 1750, and was to be seated at table 9 . The venue was relatively small, and there were no dedicated place to take photo or play small games. Most of my colleagues dress rather casually , except a few turn up in air filled dinosaur costumes. Since it is a buffet dinner , most of the people didnt sit in their allocated seats, I don’t really have much opportunity to mingle with most of my colleagues

The meals have mostly placed outside the ballroom, and we can start eating slightly before 7pm. The food meant for vegetarian were rather few, but as long as I could fill up my stomach, it’s OK

The night is still interesting as the female host ( fei fei ) was very experienced in different language and dances. Later comes the lucky draw with 15 prizes to be won. I wasn’t lucky enough to get any prize

The event ended at around 1030 pm. I heard from some of the colleagues stating that they would be going for 2nd round (karaoke). Since no one actually invited me, it’s best for me not to go with them ( 毛遂自荐)。I left for home at 11pm.

Personally wise , I have spent rather a bit on extending road tax and insurance for my car. And thanks to yihui for helping me over the month. Next month , I would need to service my car again. Home wise , my mother recently brought a foot reflex machine ( probably cost 1000 plus ) . since my mother likes it, is ok to pay half the price , I think.

Job finding wise , after the failed interview at nutek . I need to rethink if I still need to apply for pure draftmens post. Or do I have a choice afterall?

Looking forward , I could only take a step at a time , this weekend would be the videography lessons . Just hope I could make a few meaningful friends, and maybe I could be able to do something different altogether

写到这里，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time , 慧台

First interview for a better tomorrow

It has been a month since I started finding a new job. Thru the jobsteet app , I managed to apply for a couple of openings. Most of the job I applied are drafting related positions, although there are a few openings for engineers or assistant engineers, but the chances of success were pretty slim .

Last week , I mananged to get a first call for interview from NUTEK ( a manufacturing firm in JOO koon area. From then I realized that the contact number wriiten in the resume posted were outdated . I have to go online to do some amendment .

Then I made an effort to go for the interview last Friday . on Friday , I managed to take an afternoon leave , so I am able to find time for the interview . I took quite a while to find all the certificate hidden most of the time in the cupboard, but I still cant find my certificate for my japanese studies . since it wasn;t a Japanese company , I guess the cert wouldn’t be useful for now . I took an mrt to joo koon station , where I changed into a bus 252. The journey took 5 mins or so , and land me infront of the huge building. It seems to me a quite a big mnc company with a lot of employee . I changes pass and when to the office for interview .

The interview started around 1520, and two staff ( one male staff believed to be the manager) came to interview me . firstly , I was to speak about myself,. Since it is my first interview ,in twelve years , I struggled quite a bit on trying to explain my strength and the reason for leaving the present job , and I don’t think is anyway convincing . afterwards, the male manager briefly talked about my future job scope. It is 100 percent 2D drafting job , very much similar to the jobs I am doing now , just kinda a little boring and manual work intensive job.

furthermore, the manager specifically mentioned twice on the need for overtime . since the manager didn’t managed to convinced me on the prospect of this job , I could not bring myself to say yes to such position . in the end , I rejected the post on the spot. For a thought, I told myself, even how much I would want to change a new job , I should not compromised my expectation for a better environment . afterall , the learning curve would have to be a higher consideration in any new job offers that come in the way. I than ked the staff there and left for home

looking forward, I would still try to sent out emails for new posting , in the event if I still cant find a job , would I need to quit before finding a new one ? this would be a very difficult option , I would ponder deeply for the next few months

for the month of jun, I managed to enrol for a 2 day course on camera videography. I do not know what I really can benefit from such courses ( apporx 500 dollars ) . since it is fully paid by skill future credits , I should go and upgrade my self and hope to be able to make some new friends in the way

holiday wise , I starting to imagine going for a holiday as far as united states . at least , I would have the experience ( before I get too old ) of flying more than 12 hours , or 15 hours to be exact if I see myself to going west coast of united states, (san fransico ) , the ticket isn’t too expensive , with one way ticket probably cost a little more than 1000 dollars

写到这里，和自己说。不会谈恋爱的， 一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time 慧台

四月的心情

四月份开始，开始有些空闲了。总要找些书来看，来解解一下自己的孤单。近来有接触到一这种学问，非暴力沟通的学问。经过朋友的介绍，有上网下载了一段文章来读。真的发觉我们在人与人之间，常常用暴力的语言来伤害别人，也常常用暴力的语言来伤害自己。一个人常常以道德的框框来框着别人，也同样的方式来约束自己。以至我们距离我们的感受越来越远 虽然看了两个礼拜，但还无法用言语来表达对这分文章的好处。但总觉得人与人之间，能多互相了解，多些观察，少些批评。毕竟每个人的环境和出发点是不一样的。对一个人来说，多体会自己真正的需要，不用麻木的为别人而活，为自己的作为负全责，就好。

工作而言。和自己说，现有的工作已经看不到未来了，也是该换工作的时候了。前几天通过了jobstreet 的app , 申请了两份工程师的工作，虽然机会相当的低，但和自己说，未来只要有在西部的工作，五天制的，就发去申请。只希望下份工作会好一些，能有更好的学习机会。同事关系，大概不会变得更好。和自己说，不用勉强自己一定要和同事一起吃饭，结果弄的大家都不开心。自己打包饭，既能省下喝饮料的钱，同时又有短暂休息的时间。重点是和大家没有共同的话题，就算勉强坐在一起，也聊不到一起。平时表现友善，只要没有人讨厌，就算被当透明，也是可以的。只要努力工作，领一份薪水就足够了。用日语来写下自己的感想

関係ない、これはあなたの人生。人がどう思うかなんて、あなたは何がしたの。自分の人生くらい、自分で責任を持ちなさい ( It doesn’t matters, This is your life ,what other people thinks .what do you want to do ? For your Life , be 100% responsible)

旅行方面，要开始准备去台湾和首尔的旅行。如果今年会换工作的话。在新的工作开始之前，或许能出国走走。不用幻想有人会陪自己去。一个人的旅行也是可以的。接下来的一个月，先看看飞机票吧。

游戏方面，好想打了接近四年了。大部分的盟友都已经退游了。剩下几个盟友(一人打好几个号)除了打游戏，也没有其他的交流。年底“易喜兄’表明他也要退游了。到时大概可能大家一起退游也说不定。接下来花的钱或许会少一些，多花时间在其他的学习上面吧

最后，四月份有好些朋友的生日（云熙23号）（睿娴27号）。希望所有的朋友都生日快乐，

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time, 慧台

扫墓的日子（马六甲）

难得的疫情开放，二舅决定今年提早在三月二十六日安排扫墓。在月头的外公过世一周年祭拜，我和母亲都没有回来。想想扫墓也应该回来一下吧。

在拿假方面，没有想拿太多天的假，但母亲想去马六甲多住几天。在商议之下，自己还是拿了三天的假和母亲回到马六甲。在马六甲的五天里，总要有网络。在网上看到一个不是普通便宜的wifi机出租。五天还不到五元，不知后面还会不会要再给钱。只有用过才会知.

星期五早上起床，吃了早餐才出门。买了745分从文礼出发的巴士。到马六甲已经12点了。中午汉忠载我们去吃饭，才载我们去到二姨家过夜。接下来的几天，大部分时间在二姨家，没有去那里。自己很不幸的患上感冒。整天都很累。所以什么地方都没去，该准备的资料也没力气准备。只能多休息，有自我检验了一下，还好不是观病。

到了礼拜天早上，跟着汉中的车上山拜祭祖先。这次来的亲戚很少，只有二舅有来，二舅母忙工作，孩子也不在马六甲。三舅一家人没有回来。只有我，汉中，四舅，五舅和五姨。太少人就不用拍合照了。有帮忙整理一下太婆的坟墓，和外公外婆的坟墓。

到了0930分，汉中赶去做工了，我和母亲才坐五舅的车到小姨的灵位祭拜。二舅显得很疲累，说小姨的灵位不用每一次祭拜的。明年可能不去祭拜了。

剩下的两天，基本都在二姨家度过。自己帮着准备资料，也没闲情去外面走走。这几天有泡脚的排毒疗程的人来二姨家。自己和母亲还泡了两次。自己没有太多的反应，但母亲开心，贵一些也是可以的。

讲到网络，虽然网络卡很便宜，但网线也不是普通的差。有大半时候上不了网，下次可能请汉中买一下马六甲的SIM CARD 吧

最后，今天是玮馨的生日，希望远方的她会过的开心

写到这里，不会谈恋爱的，一个人也可以很开心

GOD bless all the time, 慧台

三月的心情

从父亲离开到现在，有整整三年半了。因为疫情的缘故，两年都无法到自度庵去拜祭老爸了。今年难得疫情政策放宽了。应该去拜祭一下吧

在星期六（18号），刚好也是每年清明的开始。我早上起床，吃了早餐之后，便去到小贩中心去买包素鸡饭，和几粒苹果去拜祭了。到自度庵大概是0930分了。把车停在外面，走进去。里面拜祭的人相当多一下，大家的贡品也不少，都沾满整个桌子。因为当局准备的桌子不足，所以只能在后面排了10分钟，才有个空位

在桌子上排了水果和饭，也有在外面买了一包咖啡，没有跟对方拿杯的，最后拿到包的。放在桌上，因为绑的不紧，还是溢出一些咖啡。之后有上到五楼看老爸的骨灰。和以前还是一样。自度庵呆了20分钟才回，结束了一次的拜祭活动。回顾一下这样的活动，还是好的。只是带的祭品感觉有些少，或许下回还可以多带些糕点。

讲到老爸的屋子，现在住的房客几乎都是中国人。因为租金没有很高，现在的房客大概没有这么快搬走。或许在租金方面，到了年底应该象征性起几十元吧。未来会什么时候能搬回去住，也还没有定数，要看老妈的意见

工作方面，近来都很忙。人生有时也很迷糊。想换工作的我，从去年到现在，都还没空处理履历表的东西，更不用说要找新的工作。进修课程也不知什么可以读，二胡练习也停了几个月了，该努力的东西常常提不起精力来做。有时应该多花一些时间静下来，多看有意义的书，以重新发现人生的目的。

未来还是要多努力，这个礼拜要回马六甲几天，拜祭我的外公和外婆。下个礼拜有人来换家里的木门和铁门，又是花钱的时候了。

写到这里，和自己说， 不会谈恋爱的，一个人也要很开心。

GOF bless all the time ， 慧台