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Apr 7, 2015

四月 2015年

4月3日

我的车的轮胎又爆胎了,还好有好心人帮忙(忘了名字)帮忙进风,让我要机会载车去到pioneer North找轮胎店。但因为遇到公共假期, 没有店有做生意。等了15分钟,轮胎漏风也太快了,不敢去老爸那,便把车驾回去了。之后,有好打给成发,还好他有给自已一个号码,打给 修轮胎的人(ah seng)。半个小时后,他有过来看一下, 发现有一条铁条插进轮子里。因为铁条有十公分这麽长,轮胎补不了,只有换掉(140元+40元人工费),又是出血的时候了,反正下午就要去马六甲了,只要给他钱,请他明天再来换轮胎了。

4月4日

我回到马六甲参于一年一度的清明节。早上,0545分起床,吃了二姨煮的米粉之后才出门。时间本来讲好0630分到山上,但二姨认为大家应该不会准时,所以到0635分才出门。0650才到山上,这时大家都已经到了。学了一些东西,那就是准时要从自已开始,下次应该要准时吧。

这次参于的有外公、二姨,汉忠、大舅、大舅母,二舅和一家人(3人),三舅和一家人(4人),五姨和她男朋友(2),共16人。我们开始先整理太婆的墓,三位舅舅忙着要把墓旁边的树给砍断,说树的根会弄坏那坟墓。其实那树已经在那里好一段时间了,真的会有影响吗?讲了三位舅舅都不听,好不容易把一棵小树给砍下,大树砍不了,只好砍树皮,希望树会自已”死掉” ,自已反而希望树明年还活着吧。

之后,有打扫外婆的坟墓,也好吧,当中我的二舅有说,烧金纸就够了,不用学其他人,说要烧什麽纸车,纸房或是纸做的东西,因为这些东西是烧不完的,祖先也未必懂得如何用。自已在这一点是很赞同的,但觉得,如果可以,连钱都不用烧了,只有子孙在世多行善事,自然就已经帮到祖先了。最後去廟去祭拜我的小姨,整個祭,到十一點半就好了。之後到我二舅家用午飯。以上又是一年一度的掃墓活動吧

展望方面,今年應該是比較困難的年份。公司的d&d遇到佛堂的節目,不得已把d&d放在一邊,等明年再參于吧。旅行方面,二姨講可能10月會有清邁之行,只能遲些說再看會不會去吧。其他的費用,能省則省。現在開始,一有時間就要多看書,戀情不會有機會的,一個人也要很開心

God bless anytime , everytime, all the time

慧台

Mar 30, 2015

The legacy Mr lee kuan yew left behind

On The 25 Mar 2015, I made an effort to take a trip to J link, the nearest place I could go to offer my condolences for Mr. Lee (since I do not have the time to visit parliament house to pay my respect.

I reached the place around 1810hours. I queued up to get a small black ribbon ( the crowd was pretty small at that time ( probably all gone to parliament house??). it took me one minute to walk in and pay my respect to the elderly, and the other 10 minutes or so watching TV (about The Struggles Mr. Lee faced during the early days of Singapore ), the content was relatively similar to watch I saw on Channel 8 . lastly , I left a note thanking Mr. Lee for his contribution in one of the memorial books and left .

The word I have been thinking is the word “Legacy “, or to be precise, the Legacy Mr. Lee left behind. There were people believing that without LKY, Singapore world have perished or had remained as a fishing Village. Although LKY done a great deal for Singapore), but to say Singapore cannot survive without one particular man is simply weird. Fortunately (or otherwise), history don’t repeat itself, thus there’s no way we can know how far Singapore can progress if Mr. Lee wasn’t the PM, Will it get worse? Or will it gets better? Only GOD knows. Nevertheless, I still felt very fortunate to have Mr. Lee on the Helm as PM.

After a long week of mourning, Mr. Lee Kuan Yew finally left us. The deeds he has done, whether good or bad, had become history. The more important part is what Legacy did LKY left behind. There is a Chinese saying, 人死留名,豹死留皮, when a man dies, what kind of spirit or virtues does he leave behind??

1) Anti corruption campaign, I found this part as the best merit I see in Mr. Lee which is lacking in many country leaders. In many countries, a country that cannot go forward or probably even goes backward in the result of corruption. Mr. Lee is able to stand by his anti – corruption stance and even walk it (by refusing millions of dollars of bribes in the early 1960s). This is exactly why Singapore is able to prosper due to the right ethics being brought in way from the start.

2) Racial harmony, Mr. Lee was right to promote racial harmony (whether he exactly walk the talk is rather controversial), as we see in riots in other countries due to racial intolerance. Our HDB policy had integrated certain amount of Chinese, Malays and Indians, allowing us to understand each others beliefs. As a Chinese, I was rather grateful to LKY initiated policy that I come to know more about Malays and Indians

3) Cheap housing for the public. This is another plus point for MR Lee in his early years. People at that time can afford to buy a house and fully pay for the installments in less than 10 years. Although this is mainly the credit of Mr. Lee’s colleague (Mr. Lim Kim San), but it is also Mr. Lee credit for using the right people. Unfortunately nowadays, people need to do installments up to 50 years for buy a house probably the same or smaller than the house in the 70s.

4) Sacrificial for public spirit. During the early days, LKY was selfless, and had helped a lot of people (particular the labor Unions in the late 1950s and early 1960s). he and his cabinet ministers are doing a lot for the low salaries they are getting and people are giving them support ( by voting in Pap for many years). But things start to change, when Mr. Lee started to enrich himself with high pay raise over the years, resentment gradually increase as well. The reason behind the pay raise given by Mr. Lee is that High salary will entice more talent to join public service. I cannot say if this sentence is wrong, but when we look at the substance of the ministers nowadays (and the kind of mistakes they make); I seriously doubt Mr. Lee’s belief. While the salaries is in Millions, but PM Lee (junior) had found more difficulties getting talent. I seriously think high salaries erode public spirit.

Policy making wise, it’s hard to say whether it is a plus point for Mr. Lee (or a minus one). I sincerely believe Mr. Lee intention is good at the time when decision was made, but rather when side effects came in ( example of 2 children policy ), Mr. lee failed to acknowledge his part of the mistake . The privatisation issue, the GRC systems etc are some policy we found hard to consume.

I was also baffled when Mr. Lee mentions “what wrong with making more money “(on the COE issue). Is Singapore fast becoming a company rather then a nation? When Mr. Lee’s opinion that aljunied resident will need to repent for 5 years (when they voted Workers party) that several people that I know was pretty upset for. Isn’t election about voting a better party?

On the final thought, although Mr. Lee made some mistake here and there, but I believe his good legacy had indeed propel Singapore to the state we have now

Looking forward, I hope the government would strive to improve on the good legacy and amend those not so well. So that Singapore could move ahead together as a nation, and lives made more affordable for all Singaporeans

讲到自已,日子还是一样吧。多五天就是春敏生日(四月三日),大概不能送她礼物了,只能在心中祝福她,希望她婚姻美满,早生贵子吧

什麽都要看放得下,一个人也要很开心

Mar 25, 2015

Remembering LKY

Last Monday in the pre hours, Singapore Minister Mentor (MM) Lee left us. After a long and difficult time that .Mr. lee had spent in ICU for over a month, the time finally came. It has been a nervous situation that everyone (particularly the media) was in during the final week where Mr. Lee struggled in Hospital. There was even false new spreading Mr. Lee’s (premature) death that had deceived even the major media (CNN etc)

Its 3 days since Mr. Lee’s passing, and all the news around me ( whether TV / radio / newspapers or even MRT and buses ) were full of news regarding of Mr. Lee’s passing, and it give me some deep thoughts, so I should write a blog in remembrance of an important figure of the history of Singapore ( and maybe the world )

Talking about Mr. Lee, I must admit that I never seen him in person, nor I had bought any of his books. My knowledge of him mainly comes from history books, main stream media (TV programs / radio / newspapers) or even U-tube.

From my knowledge , he was a determined man , a decisive man that will take action immediately on the things he believe in ( probably the way the words PAP (action party) comes by . He was very good to his friends but evil to his opponents, and he is also well known for not willing to admit any mistake (presuming he never make mistakes).Saying sorry probably the hardest word that came out of his mouth. This is Mr. Lee Kuan Yew, a powerful leader. But whether is he a benevolent or passionate one? I seriously doubt so

Coming to the demise of Mr. Lee, my feeling was rather mixed. On one hand, he felt relatively sad, that a person which had done so much (whether good or bad) for our nation, has come to end. On the other hand, I felt glad that Mr. Lee was being relived of his sufferings in hospital over the month.

Question for thought. Is Mr. Lee Kuan Yew a successful man (or a failure one?). Mr. Lee’s contribution to Singapore was never in doubt, but the debate was rather on how much of this contributions should be given to him (whether is it ALL? MOST? Or SOME? ) . I went thru the MSM or pro PAP websites , and it always presume LKY as the SOLE contributor towards the building of Singapore from a fishing village to first world nation . (Is Singapore still a fishing village in the 1960s??) . On the other hand, that news from those alternative media seems to downplay or even deny Mr. Lee’s contribution.

So which do I believe? I hope to see an unbiased media, reporting Mr. Lee’s merits based on f acts and not pass him any undue credits helm by his colleagues. We should practice the virtue of thanks giving, and honor Mr. Lee as indeed ours lives had improved in some form or the other.

I should visit his wake at JLink (Jurong East) this evening to give my condolences

With Deepest Condolences for Mr. LHL and his family hwee toi

Mar 6, 2015

非誠之感想 ( 看了一周年)加上五朵的生日

看着非诚 (冈上下载),不觉得就看了差不多一年的时间。在我活着的三十八年,很少会有什麽电视节目(除了梁智强电影以外),能让我看这麽久。这是为什麽呢?或许是孟非老师的幽默和冷静、黄菡的智慧等等。但在女嘉宾方面,肯定会有比五朵更漂亮的,但都现在为止(刚看完2013年的非诚),没有一位女孩在我心里,真正能喜欢,可以把照片放进自已电话的女孩。希望有一天,这样的女孩会出现吧。

现在开始对女嘉宾(和男嘉宾)作了一些简单的记录,总觉得牵手率太低了(少过百分之三十。之后,本来有爱转角的24女生 ,可以提高牵手率,到接近百分之五十( 不到一年的时间,又被拿掉了), 心里难免还是有些失望。但希望那些没有牵手的男女嘉宾在台下会遇到自已的幸福吧。

五朵的生日要到了 (1990年3月8日) 。希望她能继续美丽,笑容会一直都在,希望有机会到成都去看她。虽然去成都的机会是少之又少。去到那里,她也未必会见自已,但一点希望,拿来做梦就足够了。

最后,讲到自已。最近,有同事问起自已关于择偶的条件 。已自一时也讲不出一些具体的东西。在心情沉淀下来之后,就在想这样的问题。虽然我同事 (或朋友们) 都不会来这里看我的部落格,但我想写一下, 让我自已清楚,自已要的是什麽

我希望的女孩是感觉上的漂亮(眼缘),有颗善良的心,喜欢素食,有点小女孩,会「笑」也会孝顺父母。可以的话,希望和自已一样高( 不太矮,也不要太高,脸圆一点,身体中等吧。希望不要住得太远(以这要求来说,中国的女生应该不考虑吧 ) 但还会有例外的吧 (五朵就是其中一个),最重要的,一定要喜欢讲华语。应该不会想到缅甸,越南的女孩,就算在新加坡找不到,而必需单身,那也就也算了。讲了这麽多,这样的女孩,相信这世界会有,但会喜欢自已吗?大概比登天还难。写下来,只是给自已做梦的力量。(反正最近都在看周公的书)

往前看,我还是会看非诚,希望牵手率会有所提升,爱转角能再回来。

什麽事都要学会得开,一个人也要很开心,

写到这里,

慧台

Mar 2, 2015

2015年的開始

很快的,马年就这样过了。去年所希望马上发财,马上谈恋爱的愿望,好像没有下文。马上泡汤,或许有一点吧。这次的过年都比较静一点。大半的时间都在家里,有机会去到圣喜的家,志贤和孟锦的家。其他人都没问起 (大概也因为自已没有问),反正少希望就少失望,像我这个年龄,去拜年(拿红包)也显得不太合適。我认识的朋友都不太喜欢拜年吧 (我想),就当做休息几天好了。

27-02-2015

昨天,不知是不是吃错东西,还是肚子”进风” 到了晚了,肚子痛得不行。晚上也睡得不好。早上,只好去公共症疗所(polyclinic)看医生。等了70分钟才看到医生,总以为拿了药,和病假就可以回家了。但这次却不一样,医生用听铜 “听了一下”我的肚子,说因为听不出任何东西(病因),就把自已转到国大医院(还叫自已搭德士)。反正钱可省就要省,结果就搭巴士到国大医院。到了那里,首先要做的,就是给钱 (108元),真得贵的不行。之后,有护士帮我也做了ecg ( 只发现心跳有些快),就拿了轮椅,把自已推到里面的医疗室,之后到流留床上(等医生到来)。那里的病人可真多,没有一个脚落是没有病人的。

之后,两位医生有来,(一个外国音的男医生),和一位本地音的女医生,来问了很多问题(那里痛啊?痛多久?痛的程度啊?之类,而自已都一一回答了。自已想问到底是什麽病,他们却不愿意讲(不懂是因为他们不知还是不想讲),只说等报告出来再说。之后有护士帮自已抽血,和照x-光。整个过程到十一点左右就好了。

之后的时候,都是等待。医生过后有帮自已打了止痛的药,肚子也比较好了。就这样在大厅等到12点,才移到P2-B 的房间 在第七个床位。之后,因为不可以进食(肚子痛),而只能吊水。下午的时间,就一直在那里等着。那里还有两个病人等着要转进病房(但听护士说,病房已经满了,而且外面大厅还有五十多个病人等了一天都还没等到病床),这时,我才真正体会到医院的病房是多麽的不足吧。

那房间还真得很冷,不得不盖被吧。好不容易等到四点半才,等到医生来看房(一包水吊完的时间),结果医生也没有讲什麽病,只说血的报告没有不好。可以不用住院。虽然一点头晕,但肚子痛少了许多,就决定出院(反正住院也未必有床位)。到了 五点,便拿了药(意外只有Panadol),付了钱,便回了。

新的一年就有了人生的第一次(去到了急症室),总觉得今年应该是犯太岁的一年。什麽年都要学会看开,什麽情况都要省钱,今年就不出国了

最後,還記得中學的同學瑞雲的生日(3月3日),不論她在世界上的那個角落,都希望她有個美好的一年。生日快樂

一个人也要很开心

慧台

Feb 16, 2015

2015年 情人節

2015的情人節,我選擇在馬六甲過了。早上一早就搭了巴士回到到馬六甲。中午時份才到。 我表弟(漢忠)過來載自已。因為我回去的原因,他也決定不做生意(感動的地方)

下午去tesco 走,感受新年的氣氛。听說有馬國電台melody FM 的藝人會到。結果等到兩個小時,都看不到人(之後才知道在馬六甲就有50几間TESCO ( 給那些藝人去走),等到不到也算了。但還是拍了照片(免費),和買了三羊的SOFT TOY,也好,就當做給自已的情人節禮物吧。

晚上才到大舅母那里拿回留在日月譚的日記。晚上又可以寫日記了。

沒有情人的情人節也就這樣過了。有發了一些祝福給我的朋友,但沒有收到祝福。想想,有時親戚還比朋友重要。什麼事,要先想到親戚,再想到朋友,大概就是這樣吧。

多兩天就是過年了。不用期望有人來拜年。呆在家里,也是好事。本來按在十月份泰國行改去六月了(日期不是很好),看就不去了。今年不出國。就省些錢,希望到2017年的時候會有戀情,如果還是沒有的話(單身),再打算一個單人的旅行吧。

今年的目標,一個人也要很開心。

GOD BLESS

慧台

Jan 29, 2015

台灣之行,總結篇

时间很快,用了五个月的时间来准备,八天就走完的旅行,问自已,学到什东西呢?

在旅行前,总会幻想会遇到什么样的熟人或能认识到意外的恋情,但讲回到现实,这样的机率是少之又少。也没能结交到新的朋友,但还算正常吧。 回顾这次的旅行,有不少的收获吧。得方面,自已变得比较独立了。很多事都要为自己拿主意,也同时为这些决定享受其后果(不论是好,还是坏). 但常有反省的念头,就所谓的好也好,不好也好。开心时就感恩,难过时,就反省。

整个旅程都相当顺利,公司的团就显得有些赶,九份和十份没有什么走到。在自由方面,时间都按排的好,能看到山(阿里山), 和水(日月谭), 不足的地方就是文化村没有事先看清楚(结果花太多时间了), 导致真正在日谭的时间少了很多。心里想,如果下次再来台湾 ,希望可以去日月谭骑自行车,不去文化村了。之后也要去一下清境。也想回到九份和十份。最后有机会要去要去一下北头一下。说回来,会几时再去,没有日期,明年再看吧,但应该也不会有一人旅行了。

花钱方面,都可以吧,是换钱少了一点,下次应多换一点吧。礼物也好,这次买来送人的礼物不到十件,有三分之一就送给自己吧。

回想去年寫過的東西,拿來提醒自已吧!

如果在旅行中,可以带回一件纪念品,我会带回什么呢? 有人会选择当地的特产,有人用相机记录美丽的风光,有人学到了独立,也有人学会珍惜,无论是那一种,在旅行开始的那一刻,这些成长与失去,就熔印在我们探索世界的步伐里,成为了生命。

很快的,情人节和新年都要到了,情人节还是一个人过,这次连作卡片的对像都没有,和自已说,忍一下就过了。过年也是一样,总感觉,今在过年的气氛大不如前,大家都不喜欢拜年,本地也没有亲戚可以去,朋友都没空。和自已说,不用勉强,一定要出去,就躲在家里,看书,看非诚,写毛笔都行,做自已的东西。努力,没有不好的.

今年的目标,一个人也要很开心。

写到这里,

慧台

Jan 28, 2015

台灣之行 2015(第八天)

早上0750起床,晚上睡不好,半夜三点就起来打蚊子,一打就打死四只。一个小时后,起来又打死两只。早上吃了早餐,cake 加粥,吃得相当的饱。早上,大舅母打去日月谭的旅店,终于按排到把日记寄回来,但最少一天才拿得回。只有等下个月大舅拿去马六甲了,这个月都会用电话记录日记,到时,才转进书本吧。

早上坐捷运到动物圆(猫空的缆车), 坐到猫空站(花了三十分钟). 花了一个小时,走里面的地方, 樟树布道(由于时间不够,大概只走到四分之一吧),地方比较像鄕村的感觉(感觉不到猫空感觉), 但感觉很好(没有九份好)。

之后回到指南宫站,去看那里的镇南宫。那裡的庙很大,也很庄严,只是二楼以上的庙都在装修,所以上不了。没有求到签, 但都好吗。那里主要三个庙,仙公庙(道教), 大雄宝殿(佛教), 和祈福台,三教合一), 三个都有去,在祈福台吃免费午餐,也好吧。有机会到捐了一些钱,只希望心安理得,恋爱如果有就好,买了恋爱的牌,求了恋爱的愿,和自己说。我能努力的也只有这些,没有的话,就当作是命。改不了的,知足才会开心。

到1400才走完,有买了一个纪念品,给自己吧,希望自己开心就好。到大舅家,1500分了 休息一下,便准备,要回新加坡了,天伟临时说买两个泡面。所以去到便利店买,(还好没到机场买), 那裡没看到任何便利店) ,没有买到糖。到1620才坐到巴士。到飞机场1715分,飞机迟来迟了半小时,checkin 之后,去starbucks 吃cake. 也好吧。

到2030分进飞机, 行程也相当顺利,到新加坡0125剪了,搭德士(42元,), 到家0240分, 到现在。心情ok , 旅行告一段落了,现在要努力该做的东西,其他要多看开,一个人也要很开心

慧台

台灣之行 2015(第七天)

早上0730分起床,因为脚痛,想睡迟都不行,日记方面line民宿的人员,但迟迟没有回应,只有等的份。早上想了一下(上天慈悲), 终于想到可以去孔庙。早上有去外面走走。大部份店面都還沒開,去seven 買了早餐才回飯店。

到了九点才退房,走到巴士站搭35号。整个行程有25分钟,坐了十多个站,还是免费的,到了站之后,走一些路,才到达了孔庙。庙悔庄严,放着伟大孔圣人的牌位(没有看到像), 和七十二贤的牌位。或许是周日的原故 ,那裡非常的静,能看到的旅客也只有两位。感恩的走了半个小时。

之后才慢慢走到台中花圆,这时候,自拍器坏了,只能拍风景吧,还好有见一见 热心中年女士(50-60岁), 好心帮我拍照,也介绍那里一些好的风景,真的要感谢她。自已在那里走了一个小时,经过一个小湖,(话说是台中小日月谭,还有坐船的服务,也因为周日,所以没有人坐)。也有看其他的景色。在台中的(不同)感觉,是见到大半都是当地居民,更接近当地民俗吧。

走到1200之后,用gps)找了附近一家素食(走了15分),吃了之后,才搭巴士去到车站,到那裡1315分了,买了1335的票(去台北),日月 的人员这时才回应,说可以回去拿书,但自已回不去了。只有到台北,问大舅母,再看如何。

才到台北1555分了,之后坐捷运,但舅母的line 自己看错,走到了象山站,(过了两个站), 只好往回走。到大舅家1710分了,等到大舅回来,去附近的素食吃晚饭,也ok 之后,和舅母去附近的通化夜市走一下,感觉都不错,人也没这么多。晚上在大舅家过夜,第一天沒有日記可以寫,只能寫在電話上面,等拿回日記再打算,不然就買新的吧,什麼事都要看開,放下。一個人也要很開心

就写到这里。